Thursday 26 October 2006

残废

爱里行动不便 追不上你的美
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁 想擦掉你的脸
擦不掉痛却更明显
你说你要的世界 在很远我不了解
分手就分手 别把话说得太美
我像个残废 飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰 为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界结果我没了知觉 就连痛都嫌浪费
在爱里残废 非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追 最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点 原点却又像终点 然后多痛一遍
我像个残废
在爱里残废

Friday 20 October 2006

Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde

Today's the last day of MUFY.How do I feel?I felt nothing,seriously.Call me cold-blooded.

10 months is too short I guess.I didn't feel anything leaving the school I spent my 5 crazy years,what makes you think that I'll feel anything in a 10-month-course?Well,it differs according to different people.Besides,we still have a Grad Night Dinner,it's going to be so un-fun.Or I'm going to be so un-cool. *Sigh*

I don't think I'll miss any of my lecturers.Erm,maybe only Ms.Esther,or maybe not.One thing for sure,I'll definately not miss Bomb.Why should I?I've been thinking some of the consequences of not going back to Kedah to see my grandmother.Thanks to Bomb,she says,almost everyday:Make sure you come for the Extra Class, if you don't come,you're going to lose.Remember,I'm not the one who's going to sit for the final exam.Argh,annoying,very annoying~It sounds threatening.

'Finals,is around the corner',that's what the ending of MUFY signals.Can't find a single reason for me to feel happy.Exam is evil,it's stressful,and it's crazy.It turns everyone who's normal into some abnormal freaks--Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.Okay okay,I know I always look like the freaky Mr.Hyde.

I expect the following week to be crazy,cause I know it will be.My schedule's all pack.It's just nuts.I need a break,I need it badly. Unfortunately,a break is one thing that I can't afford to have now.That's so sad.Gimme a break~

Well,I can have a LONG break after that.After the finals,I wanna sleep for three long days.

Thursday 19 October 2006

I'm cool,she's not.

Skipped MUFY's Appreciation Tea in the evening.Just didn't want to go there and waste my precious time.Was trying to stop thinking of some terrible creature,but Stephanie,sms-ed me and told me about that creature receiving plenty of awards.

Wow,congratulations!I'm so happy for you.Congratulations for taking home the award I wanted!

*Puke*

That's so fake...

Relax,JR,relax...For the sake of your poor skin.

Hmm,that's why my skin condition worsen to such a terrible situation?Yes,I guess it is the reason...Thank you so much man,for worsening my skin condition.

Chill...I'm cool.

Okay,LeezaPizza's post reminds me of the result that was about to arrive at my doorstep.I shall start praying now.Well,relax,it's only some digits that is absolutely meaningless,chill...And,I'm never good in remembering numbers,haha~I'm one creature that has a lame concept on numbers.

Stop thinking of that person.Relax,remember your skin,your poor finger...

I'm cool,she's not...

Saturday 14 October 2006

如果我知道就好咯...

堕落了快一个星期,什么也没作,但是脑袋并没有因此停下来。总是在想这个想那个,担心这个担心哪个的,很累...

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前几天有人跟我说:喂,你在生气啊?你这个眼神很恐怖啦,很像中邪...

以前曾经听别人说:你的眼神冷冷的很吓人,脸上又没有笑容,然后很像无时无刻都在想什么鬼点子。所以,你看起来很像很坏,很恶魔的样子。但是实际上你并没有那么坏...你的笑容很贵的么?这样吝啬你的笑容...你不怕眼神杀死人啊?不认识你的时候真的很怕会得罪你,然后被你打...真的不知道你脑袋在想什么...

很多人都很好奇为什么我不喜欢笑,为什么我的眼神可以那么恐怖。如果我知道就好咯...

你 们是希望我24小时都笑吗?总不会要我在被老师骂到不行的时候大笑吧?拜托,我没有翻桌子已经算好了,还要我笑给他看...还有还有,笑有分很多种:微 笑,大笑,苦笑,哭笑[不得],皮笑肉不笑,像疯子一样的笑...那么多种笑法,我目前为止还没有找不到一种最适合我的。再说啊,从小没有人教我正确的笑 ,。那我要怎样笑?

说真的啦,我真的不是那种可以无时无刻笑的人,而且我也不喜欢笑。至少你应该要给我一个笑点。难道没有好笑的事你也要 我笑到跟疯子一样?这样会被送进精 神病院。还有,不要希望我会在陌生人面前笑得很灿烂,这真的有一定的难度。我怕别人会觉得我很白痴,然后不敢靠近我。虽然我这样冷冷的对别人也没有让别人 很想靠近我...但是,我是很讨厌在陌生人面前虚伪的笑,那很假。

对于笑容,我还是觉得应该吝啬一点。这样一来,你笑的时候大家会比较珍惜。

至 于眼神,这是一个我研究了很久都没有搞清楚的东西。我只能说,我眼睛有问题:会漏电,会让人误会,也会吓到很多人,绝对有恐吓的效果。无可否认,我的眼神恐吓作用比较多,真的很多。也许眼神不要很亲 切的比较好,很容易被别人欺负...我一直都有类似这样的想法,也许很奇怪。该不会是被欺负的太多,所以为自己装上防护罩吧?我相信一个眼神可以杀死人, 可以警惕人,可以告诉别人:我在不爽,不要来闹。所以啊,眼神其实很好用。

我的笑容和眼神就是这样了,18年以来都是如此,下个18年也应该会继续如此...我短时间内不可能改变什么,没有打算强迫自己去改变什么的。就这样。

各位,请善用你的笑容和眼神。

Saturday 7 October 2006

Confusion...?

刚才跟一位韩国妇人聊天。不知道怎样聊到韩国影星,然后她问:Do you like handsome guys?

我停顿了几秒[为什么要停顿?我不知道]。然后回答:Of course!

应该很假咯...

话说回来,有谁不爱帅哥的吗?我从来不觉得自己特别喜欢帅哥,我不觉得样貌特别的重要,只要你长得不太样衰我都可以接受。样衰者就像是第一名,第二名之类的那种人。没有特别原因不喜欢他们,可能是face-problem,长相不讨喜,又一脸自以为是的样子。

那,我喜欢帅哥吗?很重要吗?

Well,for people who don't understand chinese.This post is about a conversation between me with a Korean lady.So,after talking about good-looking guys in Korea,she asked,in English with a strong Korean accent:Do you like handsome guys?Ooh,this is one tricky question,one which I've never thought of...So,after pausing for a few second,I replied,fakely:Of course!Seriously,I don't know why should I paused...Why paused?Why paused?

I have plenty in mind when she threw me this question:Handsome?Leehom?Kaneshiro?Is it a must for girls to like handsome guys?What if I really don't fancy handsome guys that much?Hmm,and handsome is so subjective,how do you define handsome affects everything...

By the way,who doesn't like cute-looking guy?Yes,I guess I do like handsome guys,I guess...

Friday 6 October 2006

Mooncake review?

The haze out there is killing me!I think I need a mask...If you're wearing a spectacle,you're probably thought that your lenses are dirty;If you're driving,you'll think that your car is dirty.But the fact is,it's the haze.Thanks to the Indons burning their jungle back in Indonesia!!

Anyway,just came back from Bomb's extra class.She seems to be in a good mood,a very good one.Is she getting married?Or did she just date with Mr.Lee Thye Chung[another econs lecturer in MUFY.40+,still single]?Quite a number of people didn't show up in class.No doubt,champions of skipping class will be the two Monsters.Speaking of Monsters,you won't believe that they grabbed people's attention even in the exam hall,divine...Just two typical flasher who flashes all the time,ah!超级暴露狂,大变态!!One of them wore super-short skirts,white-color spaghetti-strap with a shawl.没有看到乳沟,也没有看到股沟...

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Went to Sunway Pyramid,and because most high schools are having holidays,I saw quite a number of my Juniors in the mall.Although I saw plenty of them walking in the mall,noone actually greeted me.Okay,it's either I'm not popular enough,or they're just rude.Some of them are even under me in certain Guitar Club and Ed-Board.But,hmm...I think they do see me all the time as I do performance and I'm the photographer for most major events.拜托,本人的曝光率也不差好吗?多少也有一点人气咯...Okay,dear JR,admit that you're not popular and stop thinking about the past,it useless!

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Today's Mid-Autumn Festival.My family has been eating plenty of mooncakes for 2 weeks,very torturing...The best mooncake is from HaagenDazs,gift from some friends of my dad,divine...The best packing for mooncakes will be from Hilton Hotel and Mandarin Oriental Hotel.Mandarin Oriental's mooncake is smaller then the usual size,makes it looks cuter,with the black-color box,it just look great;and Hilton's mooncake was put in a wooden box with a tiny lock,a very special box.Nissan's manager also gave my dad's company a box of TaiThong's mooncake,in a rectangular-shape box....And the list of mooncake goes on...

I did not eat too much of those mooncake,not my kind of food,too sweet.I'm glad that the mooncake season is ending.Yippee,no more mooncakes for breakfast...They're too sweet!

Wednesday 4 October 2006

Stress?

This is my finger,and it's rotting,I guess...
Oh my god,is this stress?
Enlarge photo for clearer view,and don't get shock!

I have no idea what happened to my fingers.Well,it has been like this for some time,but not like this.This time,my skin dries up and I can't even bend my fingers...I have this illusion that this hand does not belong to me,it should belong to some old man/women...The skin is so dry,as if it has been dehydrated for weeks and it has got blisters on it.And the most annoying thing is,it itchs.Whose hand actually looks like this?

Yes,I definately think it's caused by exam stress.
Although I doubt I had any stress,shh...