Friday, 26 May 2006

没有资格说话的请不要吵!!

最近的人[某些长辈,有些还是跟我没有关系的人]有一点贪心,总是对我要求很多。让我很不自在...做人不可以这样贪心的咯...我没有反弹是因为不想吵架,绝对不是因为我妥协了...我没有妥协,只是暂时在忍耐...很努力的在想办法脱离!!

我说过我讨厌改变,我讨厌改变以后被大家觉得是发生了什么大事;讨厌改变以后得向全世界人解释为什么改变。但是,我更讨厌被周遭的人叫我改变,尤其当我跟你并没有那么熟。虽然是开玩笑的口吻,但是,我就是不爽听!我 为什么要因为我家什么人跟你说了什么,然后你又跑过来跟我说什么,我就要改变啊?我不知道在听到你们那些话之后应该给于什么反应。凭什么?就因为我给面子 你,没有在你面前发飚,所以你觉得我妥协了?一个字--屁!!我尊重你们是长辈,所以都没有怎样发飚,只以微笑带过。没有资格的各位,请不要随意发表言论,我不爽!!切记,忍耐是有限的...不要以为给我一点压力我就会屈服;不一定...我不是一个这么容易就乖乖妥协的人。

对 不起,我不是一只乖巧的羊;如果我看起来像一只羊,那我想我也是一只披着羊皮的 狼。我自认有时候[很多时候]很难被捉摸,内心真正的想法总是不那么容易让人家看透。当然,还是有些人很想会通灵一样,一眼就把我看穿,最讨厌这种家伙 了...然后表达能力又差,又懒惰去多做解释。事情累积下来,我越来越让人难以捉摸。我知道我不应该一直希望别人来了解我,我应该平凡化我自己,让别人可 以了解我...哇,很奇怪,我到底在说什么屁?但是,到底怎样?为什么应该对我了如指掌的人,现实生活中似乎没有那么的了解我?不了...

做 人不应该贪心,你总不能要求我都依你喜欢的作改变吧...如果要改变,也要使我 心甘情愿的。为什么要勉强别人附和你的喜好?为什么一定要别人做他本身不喜欢做的事情?当了那么久的人,我越来越觉得自己很窝囊,总是附和着别人的思想, 讨好别人。我快把我自己忘了...很想问自己,我把自己排在第几位了?我只是想开心一点,我不是那么在乎别人怎么想,控制不了的事情我不爽去管...我不奢望他能认同我,但是我希望至少他能不反对我喜欢的事情。

最近超不爽的!!不爽自己总是要讨好别人,很没有意思,也没有目的...人会叛逆绝对不是理由的,都是身边的人还有环境逼出来的...不要以为我的沉默代表着妥协;并没有,好不好?!不要什么事情都替我做决定,我是一个独立个体。不要给我擅自作决定,然后到处放消息,我不爽!!消息放了出去就好像代表我一定要做到?没有这种事,做梦!!

这种情况,没有别的,只让我想逃...

Wednesday, 17 May 2006

认输?

长越大原来单纯的快乐
已不再我们身边很久
为什么匆匆忙忙的出门
回到家面对电视发呆
不管下雨太阳 早就不会感动
盲目的在奔跑 累了也不知道
再多喝几杯酒 以为就是解脱
那答案是什么
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错
长越大原来单纯的快乐
已不再我们身边很久
为什么匆匆忙忙的出门
回到家面对电视发呆
不管下雨太阳 早就不会感动
盲目的在奔跑 累了也不知道
再多喝几杯酒 以为就是解脱
那答案是什么
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错在不承认失败 谁可以原谅我
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错在不承认失败 谁可原谅我哦~

Saturday, 6 May 2006

对不起,我爱你...

你空出一双手 穿过黑夜握住我
两个人的手心里有 一整片宽阔的天空

谁都没有开口 星星也忘了闪烁
有你陪着我就可以 走到天涯的尽头

那时候 还记得那时候从 手心传过来的温柔
如果说 只能活这一天 曾经与深深相爱
我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远

并肩的两个人在银白色的街头
印下的脚印还一直在我的心里往前走

从爱的第一秒直到最后一分钟
我对我们之间没有任何后悔的理由

那时候 还记得那时候从手心传过来的温柔
如果说 只能活这一天曾经与你深深相爱
我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远

当走过的路流过的泪被落叶淹没
是你的温柔让我的心重新活过来
就算相爱的人无论如何暂时要离开
别问未来怎么办我只需要等待

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 把最后的合照摆在窗前
想象着你也许跟我一样 正在倒数再见的时间
等着给我说好的 永远

Wednesday, 3 May 2006

Think before you abuse...

Weirdo Alibaba started a weird topic this morning.Totally crap...

We were doing this Theme Study on The Outsider,a pretty boring novel.Finished the 3rd chapter and he decided to stop there.Then he said that he read an story in a newspaper.The story goes like this:

There's this boy,whose mother only had an eye.This boy didn't like his mother because his mother only had an eye.The other kids in school always joke on this boy and his mother because of that.So,this boy was very annoyed and treated his mother badly.When this boy grew up,he left home and went out to work.Suddenly[I wonder how sudden is it...],he received a news saying his mother's dead.He went back for the funeral and only then he realised that he was the one who was born with one eye.His mother donated her eyes for him so that he could live a normal like.The end~

Okay,basically,I feel that this is a lame~ story,totally pointless...Of course,I still feel that this boy's mother sacrifies an eye for her child,which is kinda touching...And this boy,totally an idiot.What's wrong with the mother if she was borned with only one eye?It's not that she wants to be so...

Anyway,here comes the point.Alibaba reckons that there's something wrong about this story.And he says that the mother is the culprit.Everyone in class was like:What the...?!He claims that this mother should have told her son that she donated him an eye.If she told him at the first place,he wouldn't have treated her that bad and this abusive thingy could be avoided...Again,I was like:What the hell is this?What kind of philosophy is that?!

Alibaba continues...

Actually,man shouldn't be blamed for the abusive cases happened.I mean,they should be blamed,but the women should also be blamed.If a woman are being abused,she had a choice to leave,why should she still stay there and continue with such life?There's a true case,a woman was being abused.Guess what she did?She put female hormon into her husband's coffee.This husband became sissy and his physical appearance changed too.So,if you're being abused,this is a good way to tackle with your husband,why divorce?

Someone asked:What if the husband ran away with another guy?

Alibaba repiled:That's even good,you can sue him and get money from him!!

Then I said:Then it'll be better to add female hormon in his food and get a guy to seduce him!He'll become sissy and you can get money from him!Is this your point?You're free from abuse faster and you get his money faster...

Well,I really wonder how did we went so far.From Theme Study,we travelled all the way to the mother who only have one eye,the son who mentally abusive his mother;The victim of abusive family who should have left when they're being abuse;Then female hormons in male's coffee;Becoming sissy and changes in physical appearance of man;Becoming gay;And victim getting money from abusers...Totally crap!!

So,the conclusion:Guys should think twice before abusing your wives...I reckon the female hormon is really terror...Muahaha...All female out there,did you learn a lesson??

Thursday, 27 April 2006

什么叫国际化?

新的手机号码不断有陌生来电者。那也就算了,来电者竟然还是个外国人...我指的外国人不是美国人,英国人,那种会说英文的外国人;也不是日本人,韩国人,至少会听简单英文的那种...

感觉上他说的语言有点像韩文,所以一开始我不断的用韩文问他:什么?!当然,他又用他那我听没有的语言说了一大堆。说了那么多,我只听懂了一个字:Myanmar...没错,他一直在重复着这个字...虽然我不知道是不是着一个Myanmar,但是,我的天啊...如果说他是大马公民,至少也会一点点的国语吧[我指的是:Salah Nombor!],还有一点点英语[Wrong number!]。如果连英语Wrong number也听不懂,那我真的不知道应该怎样了...所以,我想他应该是缅甸人吧,说着自己的母语,不小心拨电给我这个不懂得缅甸语的家伙,然后一直重复的在念自己国家的名字...什么东西啊!欸,这样子真的很奇怪好不好...

如果在接到他的电话,我想我得使出杀手锏了:I'm sorry.The number you've dialed is not in service.Please DO NOT try again.Thank you...对不起,您所播的号码永远不会被接通,请您不要再打来了...也许我该考虑把以上那段话翻译成缅甸语...

之前使用DiGi电讯公司的手机号码不断接到印度人的电话,一拿起电话另一边就开始用淡米尔语滔滔不绝,没完没了...这次换成了Maxis,竟然更离谱,竟然国际化到接到外劳的电话?!太夸张了吧?!该不会下次我再换一个号码,会接到什么日本人,韩国人的电话吧...某广播电台常常在播一个广告。广告里,五月天的阿信说:嘿,什么叫国际化?请问,我这种算是国际化吗?

我这是走什么狗屎运啊...?

Saturday, 22 April 2006

吉他;教她?不会吧...

有人说我弹吉他的样子很有杀气...哦,是吗?朋友,那不叫杀气,其实那只是认真...然后他说:欸,你也会认真?真低级,竟然这样看我!!有人说我弹吉他的样子很好笑,有人说很有杀气...欸,好笑跟杀气有关联吗?奇怪...

已经好久没有弹吉他了,家里的吉他也好像快死去了。昨天有一位同学,我完全不认识的同学,托我另一位同学要求我教她吉他...等一下,我没听错吧?教你吉他?多一次--教你吉他!!不会吧,难道世界真的变了?连一个被踢出社的半桶水吉他手也可以开吉他班?

我很认真的思考了这个问题。没错,很认真...然后我只觉得:Oh my goodness,不可思议...怎么办?我这个半桶水的吉他手能应付吗?如果能把她教好,我会很有成就感;但是相反的,如果教不好呢?那不是打击我的自信心吗?然后一大堆问题陆续有来:什么时候教;在哪里教;她有吉他吗;要教什么;我怎样回家....哇靠,我的脑袋快爆炸了。

最大的问题,我对自己很没有信心,而且我也不是很有耐心的人。顺便说说,我的信心在一个月前不幸遇到意外,意外之后就住进了加护病房,一直到现在都还没有复原[是变成了植物人吗?好像是...]。这信心不是一天两天可以找出来的;再说,耐心不是我要有就有的...怎么办?

真没想到,我也竟然会有着一种烦恼...哈哈!

Friday, 21 April 2006

被针对?

不知道是不是我多心了,总觉得Ms.L今天上课时一直盯着我看。是我今天比较好看吗?我的天...事情已经过了两天,我们三个人还是有一点放不开,一想到要上她的课就好难过...我认为我们是被针对了。你认为呢?

上课前,总觉得她的眼神一直在飘,然后突然间盯着我,让我很不自在...当然我也没有退缩。既然你要望,那我跟你对望好了!!谁怕谁?!真的就这样轧上了!!所以,我用带有挑战意思的眼神跟她对望了好一下子。干啥啊?有啥好看啊?!

我马上写了一张字条给Hello Kitty

不知道是不是心理作用,我觉得她用很不同的眼光盯着我看...
我也觉得,所以我也不敢直视她...
为什么?我们应该敢敢盯住她的眼睛!

糟糕,该不会接下来的几个月都要被针对,上课要被盯到死死的,每次问问题都我的份吧?拜托,我们又不是故意的,何必那么小气呢?如果每次问问题都会问到我,那我死定了...因为最近上她的课都在游魂,不知道是我太累还是她说得我不明白...她真的应该好好反省。

对了,现在我们已经不会在上课时说话了...如果有什么事想说,我们会写在字条上,让对方看。是个很不错的方法,至少没有人会说:It's rude to speak a foreign language in front of people who don't understand...

Sunday, 16 April 2006

18岁的老人

最近天天在下雨,心情也灰灰的...很惨。每次下雨我就很喜欢发呆,什么都想,胡思乱想,也不知道应该怎样停止。每次上线到一半都被逼要下线,担心电脑被 雷劈...真扫兴!电脑关上,没事做,就躺在床上睡觉咯...卫星电台也不能看,又不能上线,这个时候当然睡觉啦...不然可以干啥呢?

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这两天发生了很多事。我重遇了几位朋友;差一点就可以见到好久不见的朋友,但是最后还是错过了...;拆穿了某个烂人的假面具;看了一大群小孩子演的舞台 剧,很好玩;这两天上线都遇到同样的几个人,真有缘...;为朋友打了强心针,不断的给她自信心,主人为快乐之本...哈哈!!

有人对我说:很奇怪,为什么你总是能和年纪比你大的朋友混得那么好...这个问题啊,我怎么回答你哦?交朋友这种事情,用心就可以咯...年纪绝对不是一个问题,身高体重也只是空壳子嘛,用心就对了...看看自己MSN的名单,果然,大部分的朋友都是年纪比我大的。哎哟,年纪大又怎样?都是朋友嘛...开心就好!!结果我被炸:那是因为你心智很老吧...老人,18岁的老人。哼,就算是又怎样呢?是在嫉妒吗?哈哈...我很老[心智上],我承认,这是事实吧...

最近很多人开始新恋情,也有不少人结束了维持几年的恋情;有的人为即将来临的测验在忙,也有即将考试但是还在线上跟我聊...其实说真的,这些都OK,只要你们开心,想干嘛都可以。我的朋友,你们一定要幸福...

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啊,得去做功课了,不然我永远都跟不上课业...该死的会计!!

Saturday, 8 April 2006

How come you're so cool?

Was standing in front of class waiting for people inside to come out,this classmate of mine approached and asked:

'How come you're so cool?'
'Erm,am I...?'
'Yeah,you are...'
'Er...Cos I'm not hot?'

'Oh...Cool...'

Hmm,yes...This question has been haunting me for a LONG LONG time...Even my family member reckons that I have a shitface most of the time.Now,for people who don't know me well,they will think that I have a shitface,always showing as if I want a fight...Bollocks!!If you know me well,then you should know that it's pretty difficult for me to stop talking once I started it...I am a very friendly person...[*puke*....]Okay,not very friendly,but not that unfriendly either...

Example:
'Do you know that I really wanted to whack you when you first arrive?'This is what my Team Captain said when we were on the Taiwan Trip...

'You looked damn arrogant when I first saw you...'This is what my Piano teacher and my classmates said to me...

People who first know me will think that I am:
Very unfriendly
Angry all the time
Moody all the time
Arrogant
Proud

So,what can I do?Are you going to kill me because I don't smile?My goodness...I felt terrible too as people always misunderstand me...[Yeah,right...As if I care THAT much,haha!]

Actually it is not a shitface that I have,it is,in fact expressionless.Yes,expressionless...Remember this...You can't expect me to artificially create a smile face all the time,that will be tedious...People may think that I'm crazy laughing to myself.I rather to be reckon as a cool,arrogant,unfriendly person then to be said as a crazy freak!

I shouldn't be blame for not smilling.Maybe there's a dysfunction in the muscle of my face,resulting everyone commenting about me staring at people in a unfriendly face expression.Yeah yeah,whatever...This is ME...I don't wanna change myself.

Well,of course,some people do like me because of this expressionless kind of face expression...Not trying to show off anything,it's nothing worth to be shown off...Just wanting to say that everything has 2 face,something that you don't like maybe be something that people liked so damn much...

How come I'm so cool?Ask my mom,she gave birth to me...

Friday, 31 March 2006

李翊君-勇敢的爱

是我不应该 让你不肯爱
过去的好象回不来
时间没改变 只是你更遥远
还有什么方法可爱
是你没感觉 还是怕再被伤害
我知道你只想被爱
好想你跟我说 你会回来
只有你才是我的最爱
我说不出的话 希望你可以体会明白
把美好的回忆打开 让我们再勇敢的爱

少了你的我还不习惯 曾经有过美丽的未来
you know to me took to 放开手
我以为我能够不闻不问就让你走