以牙还牙

以牙还牙?

虽然不太像我的作风，但是我想偶尔我也应该坏一下，不是吗?

我想我又更了解我自己一点点了。我很讨厌被忽略的感觉。当已经没有人注重那些琐碎的事情，我也不应该要因为以前是怎样怎样怎样而顾虑那么多了。

Merry Christmas.

I'm home,finally...I've been away for 5 days.

Went to Cameron Highlands with my Singapore Uncle's family,it's cold.Only started to enjoy the coldness on the second day.Reminds me of the time in Taiwan,absolutely a year ago.And because I'm not in KL,I went out without combing my hair,and I regretted about that.To be accurate,I traveled without my comb.Wait,I don't even have a comb at home.We had dinner at a restaurant.After sitting down about 20 minutes,someone called my name.I turned around,and it's Jiayee.Absolutely shocking.I turned to my family and the first thing I said was:Shit,my hair...I started to sweat like a pig.This is unexpected and unbelievable,haha!

After Cameron Highlands,we went to Penang.Met with Munjong and Khengnyee at xmas eve night.Clubbing-King-Munjong brought us to a cafe and ordered two bottles of red wine,he even met someone who used to sell Whiskey in some club.B'day girl Shengyee came and joined us after countdown.And I think she was drunk after drinking a glass or two.Today,before leaving,had lunch at a restaurant near the Hotel.And guess what,someone shouted my name again when I was about to leave the place.Oh my god!It almost frighten me to death.I can't stop myself from thinking about her name,but I think she's my primary school classmate.No,she must be,or else I'll kill myself.

I think that's why people say I'm cold-blooded.I never remember people's name.

Anyway,it's Christmas!Received EvilYun's Christmas card from Ireland,very cool one.And I also received a card from Garfield and HelloKitty,handmade by Garfield.And I also got some surprising Christmas messages from some totally surprising people,aha!

Merry Christmas.Time for me to rest.

Floods in Johor

Santa Claus is coming to town?

No,more like the flood is coming to town.

There's a terrible flood going on in Johor which concerns me,particularly my hometown, Segamat.Both my grandfather's shop and house are affected by the flood.

Guess what Abdul Ghani said,he says it's god's will.

What the heck?

Roads to Segamat are currently unaccessable.My eldest Uncle and Aunt are trapped in the shop [trying to save the goods in the shop] and my grandparents and a cousin sister are trapped at home.With no electricity and food supply,I can't imagine the situation going on there.My uncle and aunt are trapped without food;My aunt was almost flushed away by the water;And my grandparents are trapped in the first floor of the house without electricity;The cars are totally soaked in water;And the goods in the shop are totally ruined.

My cousin managed to abuse some connection,trying to get them out from the house,but my grandparents refuse to leave the house.I doubt you and I have the same thing in mind--What are they thinking?The telephone line and electricity supply has been cut,there's no way to keep in touch with them except their cell phones,but the batteries are dying slowly.How long can the battery last?

This is the worst flood that happens in these 10 years.

Xmas

Xmas is just around the corner.

I love Xmas.Although my family doesn't celebrate it,but I think it's cool.See all the malls decorated with Xmas tree and with those extremely-fake-snowman.No doubt,the Xmas feel in Singapore is way stronger than M'sia...I'll celebrate Xmas in Singapore when I got the money...

But,Xmas can be abit lonely too.I've tried staying in my room alone doing nothing during Xmas night.Ah,the loneliness will probably kill you.Last year,Xmas is celebrated in Taipei,with a whole bunch of friends where there in no space and no time for the thing called loneliness.Hmm,that's the most special Xmas I've ever had,I guess...

Anyway,I'll leaving town tomorrow,again.Haven't start packing,haven't think of what to pack.

我很不爽你咯，皮肤病...

最近大家健康都不太好，医生赚大钱咯...

我们家，除了我皮肤有问题之外，住新加坡的堂弟和堂妹也有皮肤病。我能说什么?同病相怜咯...我堂妹在几个月前因为伤口不能复原，所以到皮肤诊所去打针。

最近两个星期我真的不知道做了什么还是吃了什么，手指突然烂到这种程度。二姑说是我在部落格里骂人太多了，我弟也赞成这个说法...拜托，这是哪里来的逻辑啊?我最近有常常骂人吗?好像也没有诶...

对于皮肤病患来说，我想最痛苦的时候就是睡觉的时候。因为在那个时候我们总是不能控制自己不断的抓痒，所以伤口总是不能复原。最近的我就是这样。昨天晚上手指痒到了极限，在我恢复意识的那一刻，我的伤口已经被我抓到烂了，水泡破了，手指粘粘的。那时候的我真的很想撞墙把自己弄晕。

整支手指干到不像样，皱到不像样，连把手指伸直都有问题。啊，不爽~

我很累，但是不敢睡觉。因为我怕今晚又把手指抓烂。明天要去看医生，不知道要给他赚多少，不知道是不是又要吃药，希望不要打针...

Traveling is good?

这两天手指的状况不太好。今天已经到了不能握笔写字的地步，真折磨啊...我手指的关节脱皮脱的很严重，连弯手指都困难，碰水或清洁剂更是要我的命，晚上还会因为太痒而睡不好。真庆幸现在是假期，可以不用握笔。皮肤病缠了我那么久，我第一次觉得这是麻烦的事情，做事情都得小心翼翼，慢慢来，很怕动作太大，把皮肤扯破。以往我手指恢复的蛮快的，但是这次不知道做么，已经快一个星期多了，还是烂到一个不行，很恐怖。

明天会回吉打，也许有机会在高速大道上开车，希望开车的时候不要凸槌太多。因为要回去出席婚宴，所以只好缺席MUFY的晚宴。最近怎么一直在放别人飞机啊?感觉糟透了...但是缺席其实未必不是一件好事，因为至少我不用很伤神的花太多时间在想要穿什么。不对，我好像有一点点遗憾，一点点不爽...

每天往这里那里跑的，连上网的机会都没有，真的很不爽...

My rotting finger is causing me alot of pain.I can't hold a pen to sign or write,can't sleep because of the itch.For the first time after being tortured for such a long time,I really hate it.Everything I do,I have to do it slowly,I'm afraid that I might accidentally tear my drying skin and cause it to bleed.And,I was forced to apply all kind of cream onto my finger,making my hand feels kinda oily,that's the last thing I wanna do before going to bed.Previously,my fingers get well quite fast,but not this time.What's the cause?I was hoping you could tell me.

Tomorrow's the MUFY Graduation Night.Well,I'm not going.Will be leaving for Kedah tomorrow morning,might also have a chance to speed on highway,I mean driving...I can't say that I'm totally disappointed for not going,maybe more like a relief?At least I did not spend much time and energy on what to wear,I hate it.But still,deep down inside I felt bad,slightly...

Traveling without internet sucks.I can't even get online and do stuffs that I like.But guess what,I'll be traveling here and there until the end of December.

一年了哦...

我妹妹是S.H.E.的粉丝。最近日子过得无聊，她把S.H.E.的音乐录音带光带全搬出来‘温习’，然后自己一个人很爽的看着他们的音乐录影带学他们的舞蹈。自己爽就算了，她还打算要教我...我相信我在别方面可以有着很好的表现，但是绝对不是在舞蹈方面。

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一年前的我在干什么?那时的我应该是在为了21天的观摩团在收拾行李，准备这个准备那个。当时的我没有感到特别兴奋，也没有因为要结交更多的朋友还有离开家里3个星期而感到兴奋。大家都觉得我不太正常。我没有感到兴奋，倒是有一点点担心，担心人缘不好，交不到朋友。相处了3个星期的朋友现在各有各忙，我想这个时候应该属我最空闲了。有的飞回台湾念书，有的在苏联，有的在爱尔兰，有的在新加坡。

日子过得蛮快的，转眼间一年过去了。现在是JYing在整理着行李，她也参加了中国的观摩团。她比我正常，应该会多多少少感到一点点地兴奋，也许不多，但是至少会兴奋，哈哈...而且，她是绝对不会再交朋友上有问题的，因为她比我健谈多了。对吧?

偶尔还是会跟FanLee聊到台湾的事情。我在去年的冬天到了台湾，她则在今年秋天跟妈妈到台湾去玩。她总是后悔当时没有把五分埔的衣服全扫回来，也后悔没有把7-11的零食全都带走。

算了，我觉得应该把整个7-11搬回来我家...

观摩团的各位，快一周年咯....

December

生活有点乱。12月变得有点忙，有一点担心。担心答应过的事情做不到，想要得到的事情得不到，想要见的人见不到。总之就是担心这个担心那个，没完没了...

突然间有一点蓝。说不上是因为什么，那是一种不安。星期六的事情还没敲好，所以感觉到乱与不安。下个星期回外婆家的行程我不了解，所以更乱更不安。然后，接下来的一个星期新加坡的叔叔一家回来，亲戚与邻居的结婚晚宴陆续有来，你说，我能不乱吗?还有，成绩就快放榜了，超级的不安。

唉，人生...

不行，我越来越蓝了...

唉，我想我还是早点睡吧...

Life's abit messy.December has become some kind of disaster.Too many uncertainties,too many worries...

Am feeling blue,all in a sudden.Can't really tell why,but it's a kind of uncertainty.This Saturday's outing is still a mess,well,at least it's not what I expected.Next week,I'll be going back to Kedah,another uncertainty with a little of blue.After that,my Singapore uncle's family is coming,it's fun with abit of worry.After the fun,comes the wedding dinner of one of my cousins and my neighbour.That,is plenty of worries.Absolutely disastrous!

Getting more and more blue...

Arghh...I should get more sleep.

习惯

我习惯我所习惯的事情。最讨厌的别人为了方便某些人而要我改变什么的。

我有着很奇怪的习惯。比如说，坐我爸爸的车子的后座，我一定座右边，但是如果是坐我妈妈的车子，我一定要做左边。这是我蛮执著的一个地方。还有，我睡觉一定要盖被子，不管有没有风扇，有没有冷气，一定要盖被子。我习惯在不爽的时候不出声，不说话。我不习惯脸上随时随地都挂着笑容，也许你觉得我很不礼貌，但是笑太多脸部容易有皱纹，所以，没办法...

习惯可以是好的，也可以是坏的。习惯有时候只是一种借口，让我们继续沉沦在某件事情上的借口。人家总说：改掉你的坏习惯。说真的，你真以为习惯那么容易改吗?对一个没什么记忆的小孩子，也许改变很容易。可惜我不是小孩子。

我很讨厌改变我所习惯的事情，我讨厌变卦。我相信处理事情的方法有很多，不一定要让别人改变他的习惯来迎合你的需求，做人不可以太自私。不要因为对你个人有什么好处，你就要求别人对自己的习惯作出改变，配合你。你是谁啊?有这个资格吗?我可以忍受短暂的改变。其实那也不算改变，那叫忍。千万不要小看这个忍字，它可是按住了我的坏脾气...

每个人都有着自己的习惯。好好活着，不要去打扰人家安定的生活，那很烦。做人啊，要学会看人家的脸色，要知道什么时候应该开口，什么时候最好闭嘴。当然，还要学会站在别人的立场替别人想想。有些事情没有人会说，但是你自己要知道，有些东西是不用说的，所以你要学会去感觉附近的磁场，随机应变。

你以为世界上只有你一个吗?你以为世界以你为中心在转吗?醒醒吧...

Crazy

I've been through some crazy things in these two days.

Yesterday,went to the game arcade in Sunway Pyramid for Sega Rally.Crazy enough?That's unbelievable.The crazy part was,Yen was the one who took us there...Can't really relate her with the game arcade,I can only relate her to some encyclopedia.I'm a lame racer,kinda lose in every game,haha.

Went to KLCC with FanLee and paid $11 for the carpark.Crazy eh?But if $11 can buy me a whole day of happiness,I'm willing to pay.Happiness is foc?Nah,sometimes happiness comes with a cost.Talked about some secrets that happened some time ago,amazingly surprising. Shh... Laughed and talked about my past and her past.Unexpectedly...

I get happy easily.That's what HelloKitty said.Yes,going out with my friends make me happy.As long as it doesn't require much of my energy,just chatting and walking around the place,haha.Talking about my past makes people laugh.Indeed,probably because it's dramatic?I also enjoy listening to people's problem.I'm trained?Maybe...

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I've got a rotten finger again,on my left hand.It's kinda serious this time.Will not post a photo of it here.I don't want people to say that I post gross photos here,haha...I'll do a brief description.Extremely dry skin,with cracks that look so obvious.Yes,it's pain.It's the kind of dryness that you won't be able to beng your fingers.I'm typing using 9 fingers.The whole finger's skin has come off.And the second skin of a part of my finger has come off too,looks like it's going to bleed.Whenever that part of my finger get in contact with water, lotion, detergent, shampoo, you'll hear me shouting.