以牙还牙

以牙还牙?

虽然不太像我的作风，但是我想偶尔我也应该坏一下，不是吗?

我想我又更了解我自己一点点了。我很讨厌被忽略的感觉。当已经没有人注重那些琐碎的事情，我也不应该要因为以前是怎样怎样怎样而顾虑那么多了。

Merry Christmas.

I'm home,finally...I've been away for 5 days.

Went to Cameron Highlands with my Singapore Uncle's family,it's cold.Only started to enjoy the coldness on the second day.Reminds me of the time in Taiwan,absolutely a year ago.And because I'm not in KL,I went out without combing my hair,and I regretted about that.To be accurate,I traveled without my comb.Wait,I don't even have a comb at home.We had dinner at a restaurant.After sitting down about 20 minutes,someone called my name.I turned around,and it's Jiayee.Absolutely shocking.I turned to my family and the first thing I said was:Shit,my hair...I started to sweat like a pig.This is unexpected and unbelievable,haha!

After Cameron Highlands,we went to Penang.Met with Munjong and Khengnyee at xmas eve night.Clubbing-King-Munjong brought us to a cafe and ordered two bottles of red wine,he even met someone who used to sell Whiskey in some club.B'day girl Shengyee came and joined us after countdown.And I think she was drunk after drinking a glass or two.Today,before leaving,had lunch at a restaurant near the Hotel.And guess what,someone shouted my name again when I was about to leave the place.Oh my god!It almost frighten me to death.I can't stop myself from thinking about her name,but I think she's my primary school classmate.No,she must be,or else I'll kill myself.

I think that's why people say I'm cold-blooded.I never remember people's name.

Anyway,it's Christmas!Received EvilYun's Christmas card from Ireland,very cool one.And I also received a card from Garfield and HelloKitty,handmade by Garfield.And I also got some surprising Christmas messages from some totally surprising people,aha!

Merry Christmas.Time for me to rest.

Floods in Johor

Santa Claus is coming to town?

No,more like the flood is coming to town.

There's a terrible flood going on in Johor which concerns me,particularly my hometown, Segamat.Both my grandfather's shop and house are affected by the flood.

Guess what Abdul Ghani said,he says it's god's will.

What the heck?

Roads to Segamat are currently unaccessable.My eldest Uncle and Aunt are trapped in the shop [trying to save the goods in the shop] and my grandparents and a cousin sister are trapped at home.With no electricity and food supply,I can't imagine the situation going on there.My uncle and aunt are trapped without food;My aunt was almost flushed away by the water;And my grandparents are trapped in the first floor of the house without electricity;The cars are totally soaked in water;And the goods in the shop are totally ruined.

My cousin managed to abuse some connection,trying to get them out from the house,but my grandparents refuse to leave the house.I doubt you and I have the same thing in mind--What are they thinking?The telephone line and electricity supply has been cut,there's no way to keep in touch with them except their cell phones,but the batteries are dying slowly.How long can the battery last?

This is the worst flood that happens in these 10 years.

Xmas

Xmas is just around the corner.

I love Xmas.Although my family doesn't celebrate it,but I think it's cool.See all the malls decorated with Xmas tree and with those extremely-fake-snowman.No doubt,the Xmas feel in Singapore is way stronger than M'sia...I'll celebrate Xmas in Singapore when I got the money...

But,Xmas can be abit lonely too.I've tried staying in my room alone doing nothing during Xmas night.Ah,the loneliness will probably kill you.Last year,Xmas is celebrated in Taipei,with a whole bunch of friends where there in no space and no time for the thing called loneliness.Hmm,that's the most special Xmas I've ever had,I guess...

Anyway,I'll leaving town tomorrow,again.Haven't start packing,haven't think of what to pack.

我很不爽你咯，皮肤病...

最近大家健康都不太好，医生赚大钱咯...

我们家，除了我皮肤有问题之外，住新加坡的堂弟和堂妹也有皮肤病。我能说什么?同病相怜咯...我堂妹在几个月前因为伤口不能复原，所以到皮肤诊所去打针。

最近两个星期我真的不知道做了什么还是吃了什么，手指突然烂到这种程度。二姑说是我在部落格里骂人太多了，我弟也赞成这个说法...拜托，这是哪里来的逻辑啊?我最近有常常骂人吗?好像也没有诶...

对于皮肤病患来说，我想最痛苦的时候就是睡觉的时候。因为在那个时候我们总是不能控制自己不断的抓痒，所以伤口总是不能复原。最近的我就是这样。昨天晚上手指痒到了极限，在我恢复意识的那一刻，我的伤口已经被我抓到烂了，水泡破了，手指粘粘的。那时候的我真的很想撞墙把自己弄晕。

整支手指干到不像样，皱到不像样，连把手指伸直都有问题。啊，不爽~

我很累，但是不敢睡觉。因为我怕今晚又把手指抓烂。明天要去看医生，不知道要给他赚多少，不知道是不是又要吃药，希望不要打针...

Traveling is good?

这两天手指的状况不太好。今天已经到了不能握笔写字的地步，真折磨啊...我手指的关节脱皮脱的很严重，连弯手指都困难，碰水或清洁剂更是要我的命，晚上还会因为太痒而睡不好。真庆幸现在是假期，可以不用握笔。皮肤病缠了我那么久，我第一次觉得这是麻烦的事情，做事情都得小心翼翼，慢慢来，很怕动作太大，把皮肤扯破。以往我手指恢复的蛮快的，但是这次不知道做么，已经快一个星期多了，还是烂到一个不行，很恐怖。

明天会回吉打，也许有机会在高速大道上开车，希望开车的时候不要凸槌太多。因为要回去出席婚宴，所以只好缺席MUFY的晚宴。最近怎么一直在放别人飞机啊?感觉糟透了...但是缺席其实未必不是一件好事，因为至少我不用很伤神的花太多时间在想要穿什么。不对，我好像有一点点遗憾，一点点不爽...

每天往这里那里跑的，连上网的机会都没有，真的很不爽...

My rotting finger is causing me alot of pain.I can't hold a pen to sign or write,can't sleep because of the itch.For the first time after being tortured for such a long time,I really hate it.Everything I do,I have to do it slowly,I'm afraid that I might accidentally tear my drying skin and cause it to bleed.And,I was forced to apply all kind of cream onto my finger,making my hand feels kinda oily,that's the last thing I wanna do before going to bed.Previously,my fingers get well quite fast,but not this time.What's the cause?I was hoping you could tell me.

Tomorrow's the MUFY Graduation Night.Well,I'm not going.Will be leaving for Kedah tomorrow morning,might also have a chance to speed on highway,I mean driving...I can't say that I'm totally disappointed for not going,maybe more like a relief?At least I did not spend much time and energy on what to wear,I hate it.But still,deep down inside I felt bad,slightly...

Traveling without internet sucks.I can't even get online and do stuffs that I like.But guess what,I'll be traveling here and there until the end of December.

一年了哦...

我妹妹是S.H.E.的粉丝。最近日子过得无聊，她把S.H.E.的音乐录音带光带全搬出来‘温习’，然后自己一个人很爽的看着他们的音乐录影带学他们的舞蹈。自己爽就算了，她还打算要教我...我相信我在别方面可以有着很好的表现，但是绝对不是在舞蹈方面。

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一年前的我在干什么?那时的我应该是在为了21天的观摩团在收拾行李，准备这个准备那个。当时的我没有感到特别兴奋，也没有因为要结交更多的朋友还有离开家里3个星期而感到兴奋。大家都觉得我不太正常。我没有感到兴奋，倒是有一点点担心，担心人缘不好，交不到朋友。相处了3个星期的朋友现在各有各忙，我想这个时候应该属我最空闲了。有的飞回台湾念书，有的在苏联，有的在爱尔兰，有的在新加坡。

日子过得蛮快的，转眼间一年过去了。现在是JYing在整理着行李，她也参加了中国的观摩团。她比我正常，应该会多多少少感到一点点地兴奋，也许不多，但是至少会兴奋，哈哈...而且，她是绝对不会再交朋友上有问题的，因为她比我健谈多了。对吧?

偶尔还是会跟FanLee聊到台湾的事情。我在去年的冬天到了台湾，她则在今年秋天跟妈妈到台湾去玩。她总是后悔当时没有把五分埔的衣服全扫回来，也后悔没有把7-11的零食全都带走。

算了，我觉得应该把整个7-11搬回来我家...

观摩团的各位，快一周年咯....

December

生活有点乱。12月变得有点忙，有一点担心。担心答应过的事情做不到，想要得到的事情得不到，想要见的人见不到。总之就是担心这个担心那个，没完没了...

突然间有一点蓝。说不上是因为什么，那是一种不安。星期六的事情还没敲好，所以感觉到乱与不安。下个星期回外婆家的行程我不了解，所以更乱更不安。然后，接下来的一个星期新加坡的叔叔一家回来，亲戚与邻居的结婚晚宴陆续有来，你说，我能不乱吗?还有，成绩就快放榜了，超级的不安。

唉，人生...

不行，我越来越蓝了...

唉，我想我还是早点睡吧...

Life's abit messy.December has become some kind of disaster.Too many uncertainties,too many worries...

Am feeling blue,all in a sudden.Can't really tell why,but it's a kind of uncertainty.This Saturday's outing is still a mess,well,at least it's not what I expected.Next week,I'll be going back to Kedah,another uncertainty with a little of blue.After that,my Singapore uncle's family is coming,it's fun with abit of worry.After the fun,comes the wedding dinner of one of my cousins and my neighbour.That,is plenty of worries.Absolutely disastrous!

Getting more and more blue...

Arghh...I should get more sleep.

习惯

我习惯我所习惯的事情。最讨厌的别人为了方便某些人而要我改变什么的。

我有着很奇怪的习惯。比如说，坐我爸爸的车子的后座，我一定座右边，但是如果是坐我妈妈的车子，我一定要做左边。这是我蛮执著的一个地方。还有，我睡觉一定要盖被子，不管有没有风扇，有没有冷气，一定要盖被子。我习惯在不爽的时候不出声，不说话。我不习惯脸上随时随地都挂着笑容，也许你觉得我很不礼貌，但是笑太多脸部容易有皱纹，所以，没办法...

习惯可以是好的，也可以是坏的。习惯有时候只是一种借口，让我们继续沉沦在某件事情上的借口。人家总说：改掉你的坏习惯。说真的，你真以为习惯那么容易改吗?对一个没什么记忆的小孩子，也许改变很容易。可惜我不是小孩子。

我很讨厌改变我所习惯的事情，我讨厌变卦。我相信处理事情的方法有很多，不一定要让别人改变他的习惯来迎合你的需求，做人不可以太自私。不要因为对你个人有什么好处，你就要求别人对自己的习惯作出改变，配合你。你是谁啊?有这个资格吗?我可以忍受短暂的改变。其实那也不算改变，那叫忍。千万不要小看这个忍字，它可是按住了我的坏脾气...

每个人都有着自己的习惯。好好活着，不要去打扰人家安定的生活，那很烦。做人啊，要学会看人家的脸色，要知道什么时候应该开口，什么时候最好闭嘴。当然，还要学会站在别人的立场替别人想想。有些事情没有人会说，但是你自己要知道，有些东西是不用说的，所以你要学会去感觉附近的磁场，随机应变。

你以为世界上只有你一个吗?你以为世界以你为中心在转吗?醒醒吧...

Crazy

I've been through some crazy things in these two days.

Yesterday,went to the game arcade in Sunway Pyramid for Sega Rally.Crazy enough?That's unbelievable.The crazy part was,Yen was the one who took us there...Can't really relate her with the game arcade,I can only relate her to some encyclopedia.I'm a lame racer,kinda lose in every game,haha.

Went to KLCC with FanLee and paid $11 for the carpark.Crazy eh?But if $11 can buy me a whole day of happiness,I'm willing to pay.Happiness is foc?Nah,sometimes happiness comes with a cost.Talked about some secrets that happened some time ago,amazingly surprising. Shh... Laughed and talked about my past and her past.Unexpectedly...

I get happy easily.That's what HelloKitty said.Yes,going out with my friends make me happy.As long as it doesn't require much of my energy,just chatting and walking around the place,haha.Talking about my past makes people laugh.Indeed,probably because it's dramatic?I also enjoy listening to people's problem.I'm trained?Maybe...

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I've got a rotten finger again,on my left hand.It's kinda serious this time.Will not post a photo of it here.I don't want people to say that I post gross photos here,haha...I'll do a brief description.Extremely dry skin,with cracks that look so obvious.Yes,it's pain.It's the kind of dryness that you won't be able to beng your fingers.I'm typing using 9 fingers.The whole finger's skin has come off.And the second skin of a part of my finger has come off too,looks like it's going to bleed.Whenever that part of my finger get in contact with water, lotion, detergent, shampoo, you'll hear me shouting.

Bad day for my brother.

My brother was robbed on the way home after work at Mid Valley...

My parents went to fetch him now.They said he was robbed by a man with a knife.It must have frighten him to death...He doesn't look tough,and he is not tough at all.Kinda worrying.He might be traumatize...

Now,I will like to curse the robber.I hope some huge lorry carrying logs will bang him when he's walking on the street.I hope he'll bite his tongue,choked and die when he's eating.I hope he fells when walking on the street,and fell into some escape canal.I hope he will receive electric shock when he uses electrical appliances.I hope he has erection dysfunction,infected with STD after having sex.I hope he fells into a big longkang during a raining day and I hope he drowns.I hope birdSss shit on him while flying on top of him.I hope someone does the same thing on him,take a knife and robbed him.And stab on his balls.F@#ker!

Since my brother surrendered his cell phone,so I just called to suspend his line.DiGi is quite efficient,didn't have to wait for a long time.Nice and friendly operator.But because the line is registered under my mom's name,therefore he asked me alot of question about my mom.I can't remember my mom's IC number.Well,who cares...

Oh,he's back...One lucky thing,he didn't bring his MP3 to work.

My dad was once robbed,in front of my house,once upon a time when there were no automatic gates.My dad was wearing a watch which is famous among robbers,so the watch was taken away.What was I doing by that time?Shouting and crying.What do you expect me to do?I was only 4 or 5 when it happened.

Yes,my brother is traumatized...He's now crying on my bed.

My brother has been planning to change his lame phone,and he's going to get it now.He'll have to go and get his new sim card and reactivate his line again.

My brother is traumatized,he's okay now,laughing with my sister...

Indon maid.

I hate talking to crazy guys.It's like talking to aliens that are from some planet far away.It seems like he don't understand my language when I said I don't know,that sucks!When I say I don't know,I mean it.I mean everything I said.

This crazy guy thinks that his ex-girlfriend still likes him.Well,maybe it's true,I don't know...But seriously,there're things that I don't know and wouldn't want to know.Hell,I'm not a walking encyclopedia that knows all the happenings in the world.I'm an ordinary human being and I'm trying to act stupid.There're things that we shouldn't know.We will know when it's time,be patience.

The way he speaks,makes me wanna give him a punch on his face.

You,should seriously learn how to shut up before you accidentally triggered something dangerous.

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I've heard of some stories about maid today and I'll share it with all of you.If you're planning to hired an indon maid,you should skip the following.

There's this Indon maid,did her 'bussiness' on the car park of the bungalow early in the morning.And she was sent back to the agent,immediately.She denies it when her boss asked her,and tries to spray the feces away with water.What is she thinking?Maybe she's not used to using a toilet?Don't laugh,there are people who can't get used to the sitting-type of toilet after squating for half of their life.

Another case that I've heard is the maid eating all the good food that the master bought without asking.One of the family member likes chocolate,and she'll buy plenty of chocolates and amazingly,they noticed that the chocolates was disappearing when noone in the family has been eating it.They knew it must have been the maid,and so,the lady master went and told the maid that the chocolates are maid of pork oil[so lame].The maid said:It's okay,I'll drink plenty of water and excrete it.Okay,I'm speechless...And when the lady boss buys fruit and put it in the fridge,she'll pick the largest fruit and eat it alone.Whatever you have in the fridge,she'll help to eat.

She's smart.

Now,I'm going to amaze you with one funny story.

This maid,actually has this fantasy of being in love with the young master.She wrote in her diary saying that their love wasn't blessed because the young master is a Buddhist and she's a Muslim.According to the lady master,she wrote all kind of absurd things about her fantasy.Well,if the young master didn't have a big and round tummy at the age of 17,I wouldn't consider this as a funny story.I mean,there're so many people and you...Wow,it's abit unacceptable.

What a taste she has...

radioactive.

Radioactive is bad for health,everyone knows that.But nowadays,almost everything creates radioactive.Why can't some people just accept the fact and go on with life?Why must they avoid this and avoid that,causing all the trouble?Radioactive is everywhere.You'll probably have to stay in some cave in the mountain to avoid that.

My mom knows this someone who's very health-conscious until I sometimes get so pissed with her.Due to the radioactive created by the computer,she kinda banned the use of computers at her house.But,because he has a son who's at the same age as me,college student,they must have one.So,she did get a computer at home,the most basic kind of computer,without a burner,but with LCD flat monitor.I find it very weird because she rather spend her money on a flat screen monitor than a burner.LCD monitor have less radioactive,got it?

Okay,so she doesn't has a burner,whenever she needs to burn CD,DVD,she'll call to my house,ask my mom this and that.And at last,I'll be the one burning the disc for her.How nice of me...

And yesterday evening,she said she has a few urgent DVD to burn.My mom woke me up from my nap and asked me plenty of technical things,because we don't have DVD burner in my computer.All we have was a DVD recorder and another DVD player,connected to the TV set.It sounds abit complicated,and it is complicated if you wanna burn the DVD in that way.I'm now burning the DVD on my cousin's computer.And there's some error in it.I don't care,I don't have the time to figure out the error.

She has planty of weird theories about health issue.And she's absolutely crazy about organic food.Everything in her house is kinda organic and the house is full with crsytal,all kinds of stone that scholars said it's good for our health,charcoal which was said to have the effect of reducing radioactive,and the crap goes on.

Oh,by the way,she doesn't use a handphone,you know...She has one,but she just doens't bring it out when she's away.Why?Of course it's the radioactive.Car produces radioactive too.I suggest she sell her cars and start walking.

She should enter the Guinness World Record.

二世祖

有些家伙真的很讨厌，不知道你有没有碰过。仗着自己父母有钱，又疼爱自己所以觉得自己做什么都是对的。我呸!撞墙吧...我讨厌二世祖。

有一个比我小一年的家伙，在下着倾盆大雨，打雷的时候打电话给他妈妈，然后对妈妈说：你怎么又把我一个人丢在家啊?这家伙只要从学校回来，一定是上网玩线上游戏，妈妈在不在家他根本不管。在他家还没有申请宽频之前，他家的电话费因为他每个月都过半百。这种人...你有资格说你妈吗?

而且有的二世祖不知道是怎样，说话前都不用脑袋想一想的...曾经有某个家庭一起出外吃晚饭，然后妈妈对儿子说：啊，你不是说要去念XX学院的吗?你可以问JR啊，她现在在那里念书。你知道那家伙说什么吗?他摆出一幅很不屑的样子说：哎哟，那间学院啊，给一点钱就可以进的啦...

当时的我什么也没有说，沉住气...一回到家我就开始骂三字经。这种人真无知...

对 啦对啦，人家老子有钱的很，可以这样子塞钱让别人收他孩子。那好啊，有种你就给 我把SPM搞砸，每科给我考不及格，然后塞一点钱给人家，求人家收你。说话前要用脑袋想一想，不然像你这样，脑袋迟早会坏掉，生锈。如果人家不收你，那你 叫你老子把人家的学院买下咯，没什么大不了嘛...

仗 着自己父母很有钱，花钱都不用想。想做什么就做什么。说家里的网络路线不好，吵 着要去网咖跟朋友玩线上游戏，要买电脑，要申请宽频。后来不懂电脑的父亲特地为他买了一套很棒的名牌电脑，还为他在家里装了宽频。那家伙连打线上游戏都用 无线的Mouse和Keyboard，用的是一流的设备，最后还是吵着要去网咖，还说什么那里的气氛就是不同啦...什么屁!!而那一套很棒的名牌电脑， 用了不到一年，就被他嫌东嫌西的，嫌速度慢，嫌无线Mouse和Keyboard吃电，卖掉了，然后再买一架自己组装的电脑。像你这样，一睁开眼睛就在玩 线上游戏到半夜，你expect你的无线Mouse和Keyboard的电池可以耐多久?一点常识都没有。

穿名牌，住独立式的洋房，还没考驾照就已经跟父母说要买什么车子，说话不经大脑。真不知道这些人以后想干嘛?想靠老子一辈子啊?醒醒吧!

这种人...

好久没见面。

我们两个人之间没有想念。因为有前嫌，我们只剩下埋怨。

他所谓的想念，那只是用来圆场的谎言。

And so someone said,"I miss you so".

Somehow I know that's not a fact,it's just a fucking lie.

Such actors,speaks of everything except the truth,with a mask covering their ugly faces.

Fucking liers...

玫瑰 2

欸，我有看到你那个关于玫瑰的blog嘞...
哇，N先生，你12点多打来就是要跟我讲这个啊?
没有啦...哇，你真的很神吼，这样的方法你也想到。
讲重点好吗，我要盖电话了。
等一下啦，我有东西要问你。
讲。
我打算要追那个XXX，你觉得怎样?要用什么方法?
做么要追她，她欠你钱啊?哈哈哈...
妈的，你可以认真一点吗?
认真?认真要收钱的哦...你要我多认真?你要为我的认真付多少?
哟，你现在是多缺钱?快点讲啦...
讲什么?好心咯，连追女孩子也要问别人么?不要这样没有诚意啦...
诚意啊...Okay，我去买99朵玫瑰，这样够诚意吗?
买98朵就好了，第99多是她嘛...你要对她说：这里有99朵玫瑰，你数数看...然后她问你你才说她是第99朵。
去死啦...如果她算错怎么办?算多了，算成有99多怎么办?
靠，那她数学也太差了吧...
你去死啦...

好心没好报。花了快30分钟接听这种电话还被人骂...

到最后，他还是决定了买花。这绝对是一个好的开始，至少他能让我知道这个烂招数到底有没有用。之前的那位男性朋友并没有用这个方法，应该说，他什么都没有作，也不想行动了。Don't ask...

我之前还在担心没有人帮我认证这个招数，现在终于找到人啦，哈哈...

现在想起来，觉得这方法还蛮冒险的。如果你想要用这个方法跟她表白，所以买了98朵玫瑰，站在她学校还是办公室外面等她。万一，我是说万一啦...万一这女生对你一点意思也没有，而且对你说：我们还是比较适合当朋友。那你不是要为那98朵玫瑰的钱哭死了吗?当然，有另一种可能是你彻底的被她的话伤了，然后完全不记得那98朵玫瑰的存在。

算了，还是11朵比较妥当，这样子女生数玫瑰的时候比较不容易出错。再说，如果砸了一大笔钱买玫瑰又被拒绝，那不是很惨吗?花了一笔钱买花，又要捧着一大束花在大门徘徊，还要被拒绝，蛮丢脸的...

啊，还是不要跟N先生说，看他有没有成功。

各位，拭目以待吧。这个烂招到底有没有用，很快就会揭晓...

Socializing class?

About a week ago,after having my nap,I stepped out of my room to have a drink.While walking down the flight of stairs,I heard a voice.

A lady was talking to my mother.I knew the owner of the voice,it's her.Instead of walking down to the kitchen,I went back to my room,waiting for her to leave.I knew the decision I made was absolutely correct.I knew exactly what's going to happen if I go down.

After she left,I went down happily,and mom says:

Aunt X just left,she wants to see you.She says it has been ages since she last saw you.

Wow,am flattered...

I was thinking:Luckily I didn't came down,haha!I'm such a genius. Muahahaha~

So today,after lunch,mom says:

Aunt X is coming later,make sure you show up.Let her see you.

Uh-oh,I need to find my fake-smile-mask...Hey,is she going to pay me for showing up?

The time has come,I went down to the living room,to show up--a guest appearance without getting paid.

Aunty. *Smile*
Oh,you're JR?
Yes...[Duh?]
Wow,you've changed again....
[Huh?]
You look different,in Primary School,in High School.You're different.
*Smile* [Well,one thing for sure,I didn't go for plastic surgery.]
People only changed once,you changed so many times...
.....[What's that suppose to mean?]

No,the conversation didn't stop here.We started,no,SHE started to talk about once-upon-a-time. Great...How nice...

My mom and her sat there and chatted for an hour.Well,I sat there too,showing the fake smile all the time.The only reason we sat there was because she wasn't leaving.The conversation was changing all the time,from how I used to look when I was small,to my sister whom she says was better then me[she says I'm naughty],my brother who never gain weight,the monkeys at our area,the mice in her house,corns that she bought and cooked in the wrong way,some nice salad that she make,entering High Schools,my pre-U course,her lawyer-to-be daughter,her second daughter who has also changed in these few years,a rude old schoolmate of mine....Wow,It's a neverending list.Isn't that amazing?

Now you know why didn't I went down last week.

One thing I don't understand,how come people likes to say I'm naughty.Well,not really naughty,it should be disobedient,I don't know the exact term,lets forget about it....I never said that I'm obedient,good,not naughty.Not that I remember things that happened once-upon-a-time,those are histories,for God sake.And I don't give a damn on how you see me.I am,me,the one that you probably won't get to understand for the rest of your life,so just remain where you are,and continue with your life,achieve growth.

I'm not trying to be rude.Just that,I don't know....You know how I dislike about such situation.

I should take up socializing classes...

玫瑰

曾经跟某男性朋友聊天，聊到了这么样子的一件事：

欸，JR，我想送花给那个谁谁。
哦，真的啊?你要送几朵?
现在一朵玫瑰的价钱是多少蛤?我应该会送12朵咯...
送几朵几朵有意思的是吗?
不知道啦...好像是有特定的意思的。
哦，酱啊...
怎样?
酱你就买11朵玫瑰啦，然后对那女孩说她是第12朵玫瑰咯...
欸，不错了...哈哈!!厉害...
哇哈哈哈哈...

我忘了我在那里听过这么一个烂招术...好像是身边朋友的真实案例。到最后这计划有没有成功我并不知道，但是我还是建议了我的这位男性朋友。

被爱情冲昏头的女孩应该会觉得男生这种举动很sweet吧?再理智的人应该还是会心软的，是吧?

话说回来，花一百元买了玫瑰花然后呢，等玫瑰花凋谢吗?还是去吃顿烛光晚餐比较值得吧...还是把一百元都拿去买电话预付卡，跟女友聊电话聊通宵...

这种烂招术，到底多有用啊?

说谎 - 张信哲

这次我又担心到天亮 现在你靠在谁身旁
窗外透进来的光 照得心发慌 熬过了失眠的晚上
每次你的理由都一样 其实我都懂只是不讲
把自己弄的很忙 其实是假装 看你这次要怎么收场
我说我会是你可以依靠的肩膀 而你却站在离我最远的地方
我爱你的心一样 总是选择原谅 你有多少借口除了说谎
如果我不是你可以停靠的地方 我们就到此为止不必再勉强
现在开始不一样 像路人经过身旁 你也不必装模做样
我会遗忘 别再说谎

**********

我的重点是：
1.要说谎就不要让谎言曝光
2.如果谎言是迟早都会曝光的，那就不要说谎...

谎言曝光的那一刻，被骗的人真的会觉得很糟咯...

有人要学说善意的谎言吗?我开办授课。先说明，我只教善意的谎言。

If you want to lie,don't let others know that you're lying.
If you know that the lie won't last,then don't lie.

It sucks when other people knows that you're lying.

Anyone wants to have lesson on how to lie?I can teach,but only lies that won't hurt...

残废

爱里行动不便 追不上你的美
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁 想擦掉你的脸
擦不掉痛却更明显
你说你要的世界 在很远我不了解
分手就分手 别把话说得太美
我像个残废 飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰 为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界结果我没了知觉 就连痛都嫌浪费
在爱里残废 非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追 最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点 原点却又像终点 然后多痛一遍
我像个残废
在爱里残废

Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde

Today's the last day of MUFY.How do I feel?I felt nothing,seriously.Call me cold-blooded.

10 months is too short I guess.I didn't feel anything leaving the school I spent my 5 crazy years,what makes you think that I'll feel anything in a 10-month-course?Well,it differs according to different people.Besides,we still have a Grad Night Dinner,it's going to be so un-fun.Or I'm going to be so un-cool. *Sigh*

I don't think I'll miss any of my lecturers.Erm,maybe only Ms.Esther,or maybe not.One thing for sure,I'll definately not miss Bomb.Why should I?I've been thinking some of the consequences of not going back to Kedah to see my grandmother.Thanks to Bomb,she says,almost everyday:Make sure you come for the Extra Class, if you don't come,you're going to lose.Remember,I'm not the one who's going to sit for the final exam.Argh,annoying,very annoying~It sounds threatening.

'Finals,is around the corner',that's what the ending of MUFY signals.Can't find a single reason for me to feel happy.Exam is evil,it's stressful,and it's crazy.It turns everyone who's normal into some abnormal freaks--Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.Okay okay,I know I always look like the freaky Mr.Hyde.

I expect the following week to be crazy,cause I know it will be.My schedule's all pack.It's just nuts.I need a break,I need it badly. Unfortunately,a break is one thing that I can't afford to have now.That's so sad.Gimme a break~

Well,I can have a LONG break after that.After the finals,I wanna sleep for three long days.

I'm cool,she's not.

Skipped MUFY's Appreciation Tea in the evening.Just didn't want to go there and waste my precious time.Was trying to stop thinking of some terrible creature,but Stephanie,sms-ed me and told me about that creature receiving plenty of awards.

Wow,congratulations!I'm so happy for you.Congratulations for taking home the award I wanted!

*Puke*

That's so fake...

Relax,JR,relax...For the sake of your poor skin.

Hmm,that's why my skin condition worsen to such a terrible situation?Yes,I guess it is the reason...Thank you so much man,for worsening my skin condition.

Chill...I'm cool.

Okay,LeezaPizza's post reminds me of the result that was about to arrive at my doorstep.I shall start praying now.Well,relax,it's only some digits that is absolutely meaningless,chill...And,I'm never good in remembering numbers,haha~I'm one creature that has a lame concept on numbers.

Stop thinking of that person.Relax,remember your skin,your poor finger...

I'm cool,she's not...

如果我知道就好咯...

堕落了快一个星期，什么也没作，但是脑袋并没有因此停下来。总是在想这个想那个，担心这个担心哪个的，很累...

**********

前几天有人跟我说：喂，你在生气啊?你这个眼神很恐怖啦，很像中邪...

以前曾经听别人说：你的眼神冷冷的很吓人，脸上又没有笑容，然后很像无时无刻都在想什么鬼点子。所以，你看起来很像很坏，很恶魔的样子。但是实际上你并没有那么坏...你的笑容很贵的么?这样吝啬你的笑容...你不怕眼神杀死人啊?不认识你的时候真的很怕会得罪你，然后被你打...真的不知道你脑袋在想什么...

很多人都很好奇为什么我不喜欢笑，为什么我的眼神可以那么恐怖。如果我知道就好咯...

你 们是希望我24小时都笑吗?总不会要我在被老师骂到不行的时候大笑吧?拜托，我没有翻桌子已经算好了，还要我笑给他看...还有还有，笑有分很多种：微 笑，大笑，苦笑，哭笑[不得]，皮笑肉不笑，像疯子一样的笑...那么多种笑法，我目前为止还没有找不到一种最适合我的。再说啊，从小没有人教我正确的笑 ，。那我要怎样笑?

说真的啦，我真的不是那种可以无时无刻笑的人，而且我也不喜欢笑。至少你应该要给我一个笑点。难道没有好笑的事你也要 我笑到跟疯子一样?这样会被送进精 神病院。还有，不要希望我会在陌生人面前笑得很灿烂，这真的有一定的难度。我怕别人会觉得我很白痴，然后不敢靠近我。虽然我这样冷冷的对别人也没有让别人 很想靠近我...但是，我是很讨厌在陌生人面前虚伪的笑，那很假。

对于笑容，我还是觉得应该吝啬一点。这样一来，你笑的时候大家会比较珍惜。

至 于眼神，这是一个我研究了很久都没有搞清楚的东西。我只能说，我眼睛有问题：会漏电，会让人误会，也会吓到很多人，绝对有恐吓的效果。无可否认，我的眼神恐吓作用比较多，真的很多。也许眼神不要很亲 切的比较好，很容易被别人欺负...我一直都有类似这样的想法，也许很奇怪。该不会是被欺负的太多，所以为自己装上防护罩吧?我相信一个眼神可以杀死人， 可以警惕人，可以告诉别人：我在不爽，不要来闹。所以啊，眼神其实很好用。

我的笑容和眼神就是这样了，18年以来都是如此，下个18年也应该会继续如此...我短时间内不可能改变什么，没有打算强迫自己去改变什么的。就这样。

各位，请善用你的笑容和眼神。

Confusion...?

刚才跟一位韩国妇人聊天。不知道怎样聊到韩国影星，然后她问：Do you like handsome guys?

我停顿了几秒[为什么要停顿?我不知道]。然后回答：Of course!

应该很假咯...

话说回来，有谁不爱帅哥的吗?我从来不觉得自己特别喜欢帅哥，我不觉得样貌特别的重要，只要你长得不太样衰我都可以接受。样衰者就像是第一名，第二名之类的那种人。没有特别原因不喜欢他们，可能是face-problem，长相不讨喜，又一脸自以为是的样子。

那，我喜欢帅哥吗?很重要吗?

Well,for people who don't understand chinese.This post is about a conversation between me with a Korean lady.So,after talking about good-looking guys in Korea,she asked,in English with a strong Korean accent:Do you like handsome guys?Ooh,this is one tricky question,one which I've never thought of...So,after pausing for a few second,I replied,fakely:Of course!Seriously,I don't know why should I paused...Why paused?Why paused?

I have plenty in mind when she threw me this question:Handsome?Leehom?Kaneshiro?Is it a must for girls to like handsome guys?What if I really don't fancy handsome guys that much?Hmm,and handsome is so subjective,how do you define handsome affects everything...

By the way,who doesn't like cute-looking guy?Yes,I guess I do like handsome guys,I guess...

Mooncake review?

The haze out there is killing me!I think I need a mask...If you're wearing a spectacle,you're probably thought that your lenses are dirty;If you're driving,you'll think that your car is dirty.But the fact is,it's the haze.Thanks to the Indons burning their jungle back in Indonesia!!

Anyway,just came back from Bomb's extra class.She seems to be in a good mood,a very good one.Is she getting married?Or did she just date with Mr.Lee Thye Chung[another econs lecturer in MUFY.40+,still single]?Quite a number of people didn't show up in class.No doubt,champions of skipping class will be the two Monsters.Speaking of Monsters,you won't believe that they grabbed people's attention even in the exam hall,divine...Just two typical flasher who flashes all the time,ah!超级暴露狂，大变态!!One of them wore super-short skirts,white-color spaghetti-strap with a shawl.没有看到乳沟，也没有看到股沟...

**********

Went to Sunway Pyramid,and because most high schools are having holidays,I saw quite a number of my Juniors in the mall.Although I saw plenty of them walking in the mall,noone actually greeted me.Okay,it's either I'm not popular enough,or they're just rude.Some of them are even under me in certain Guitar Club and Ed-Board.But,hmm...I think they do see me all the time as I do performance and I'm the photographer for most major events.拜托，本人的曝光率也不差好吗?多少也有一点人气咯...Okay,dear JR,admit that you're not popular and stop thinking about the past,it useless!

**********

Today's Mid-Autumn Festival.My family has been eating plenty of mooncakes for 2 weeks,very torturing...The best mooncake is from HaagenDazs,gift from some friends of my dad,divine...The best packing for mooncakes will be from Hilton Hotel and Mandarin Oriental Hotel.Mandarin Oriental's mooncake is smaller then the usual size,makes it looks cuter,with the black-color box,it just look great;and Hilton's mooncake was put in a wooden box with a tiny lock,a very special box.Nissan's manager also gave my dad's company a box of TaiThong's mooncake,in a rectangular-shape box....And the list of mooncake goes on...

I did not eat too much of those mooncake,not my kind of food,too sweet.I'm glad that the mooncake season is ending.Yippee,no more mooncakes for breakfast...They're too sweet!

Stress?

This is my finger,and it's rotting,I guess...

Oh my god,is this stress?
Enlarge photo for clearer view,and don't get shock!

I have no idea what happened to my fingers.Well,it has been like this for some time,but not like this.This time,my skin dries up and I can't even bend my fingers...I have this illusion that this hand does not belong to me,it should belong to some old man/women...The skin is so dry,as if it has been dehydrated for weeks and it has got blisters on it.And the most annoying thing is,it itchs.Whose hand actually looks like this?

Yes,I definately think it's caused by exam stress.Although I doubt I had any stress,shh...

Salt in my coffee

I don't know what the hell is going on.I'm tired,hungry and home alone.

Was supposed to go out for dinner.Hey,I'm still here crapping.Yes,the appointment was cancelled.Duh,can't you see the word supposed?So,I went to my kitchen to find something to eat.Apparently,my kitchen was kinda empty[not that I wanna cook for myself],so decided to make myself a cup of coffee.Wanted to add creamer into my coffee but I added salt.Imagine how does my cup of coffee tasted like...Was so freaking pissed off.Why on earth do people keep salt and creamer in the same cabinet?!I have nothing to eat,and my coffee taste like shit!FINE,I'm not eating for tonight.I'll just starve to death!

Chill~Chill~I'm cool~

Bah~

Am I pissed?You guess...I'm so hungry.

祝我生日快乐

刚才跑去跟别朋友一起吃蛋糕。朋友看我18了，就开起了黄腔。四个人越说越兴奋，好像嗑了药似的...这是个很奇怪的庆祝方式，四个人在车子上一路讨论不同的片子...

二姑传来短讯祝我生日快乐。朋友在晚餐时间还是陆陆续续有在传短讯。谢啦各位...

我老了。

生日愿望吗?

我希望一切顺顺利利，平平安安。

太简单了吗?

好。我希望Trials顺顺利利；Finals也顺顺利利；希望不要再被炸弹盯死；希望不要再不见这个不见那个；希望不要再不爽西不爽东；希望常常受到短讯；希望可以抽空去跟朋友吃个饭；希望抽空跟朋友去唱歌；最后，希望我的愿望成真。

哈哈哈哈哈~~

要求真多....

生日快乐，我对自己说。

露沟-后续篇

露沟的Monster最近又有新动向了。除了露沟，还喜欢露Bra。真是名副其实的暴露狂...

今天早上，Hello Kitty有一点兴奋的对我说：

喂，你昨天有看到Purple Monster吗?
蛤，哪一个?
还有哪一个?那个很严重的啦，引人犯罪的。
她昨天坐我的后面啦，没有注意哦...做么?
哎哟，昨天阿，她穿的衣服很low-cut嘞，比她的Bra还要low-cut。
有没有搞错，你昨天没有叫我看?!害我错过了...欸，她穿什么颜色蛤?
呃，她穿红色的top，还有浅蓝色的Bra咯...
吼，红配蓝...
她昨天真的很引人注意咯，她这样经过我都忍不住去看她的衣服...
错!是看她的Bra...都是你咯，没有跟我讲，害我没有看到...

各位观众，精彩的还在后头...

今天，两只Monster依然坐在我后面。我忘了我是怎样开始注意他的...不经意的转身就看到了她穿了一件白色吊带上衣，红色的Bra。露沟也露Bra...白色吊带上衣有一点松松垮垮的，所以你不用很用力地去瞄就可以看到胸罩的颜色了。如果她的服装是为了吸引别人的眼光，那么我可以告诉你，她成功了，而且是非常的成功。为什么要这样蛤?乐趣在哪里?

如果要这样露Bra的话，我建议她买有镶钻的Bra，看起来比较闪，比较高贵[?]，比较适合她的tone，就整个很BlingBling的Feel。除此之外，她又可以很理所当然的成为大家的焦点啦...

甲：哎哟，你看，她的胸罩有镶钻嘞...
乙：哇，是咯是咯。不知道花了多少钱吼...

要离开的时候，我东西收收就站了起来。让我看见了，原来她的胸罩不是红色的，只是边边还有吊带上是红色的。正确的来说，她的胸罩是黑色的....还有什么?还有乳沟咯...我不知道她有没有用我提供的方法，让它看起来更深...但是，就算不画，她也蛮有料的啦。

我知道，此时你们一定再说我变态对不对?!哎哟，不要说我变态啦...

注意Monster的又不止我一个...这是因为生活太无聊了，所以必须从中找一点乐趣。

沉默的后果

上课都会遇到疯子，你相信吗?话说今天一开始上课，炸弹就开始在班上乱开枪扫射了。没错，今天开始上课不到10分钟我就中招了。最近不知道在走什么狗屎运...

第二名在被问到昨天上课的内容是回答道：I do not know.哇，真是有种的家伙。

好，炸弹开始发神经了，全班人被骂...

Okay，过了好一阵子，她开始教新的topic，大家都快睡着了，就在这个时候，她又疯了。

以下是炸弹发神经的经过：

Do you understand?Do you need me to repeat?
.......[没有人回答]
Do you need me to repeat?
.......
Class,I'm asking a question!
....[隐约听到有两三把声音在回答]
You all are college students right?Pre-U students right?Why can't you all answer just a simple question like this?
.......[心里OS：你越是这样要我回答，我偏偏不要回答啊，怎样?]
DO YOU NEED ME TO REPEAT?!
........
VERY SIMPLE,IF YOU DON'T ANSWER,I TAKE THAT YOU UNDERSTAND,AND IF I ASK QUESTION,YOU GUYS SHOULD BE ABLE TO ANSWER!
....[随便你问咯...反正我最近常常中招]

我们的沉默激怒了她。

怎样?很棒吧?说真的，我们常常不回答她的问题。这她也应该要习惯了吧...她常常说：I think even when I talk to the walls,the walls will answer me.

Wow,I'm surprised...The walls can talk eh?Oh,really?Mind to do a demo?Let me see how the walls answer you.

粗口，是一种语助词

我说不上是什么斯文人...就算是，也一定是--斯文败类。

我不是斯文人，因为我长时间都在讲粗口。

说真的，我还真想问：到底是什么人规定粗口是粗口的?

如果没有人在旁边说：喂，你作么讲粗口?也许你永远也不知道你自己在骂粗口...那到底是谁先开始骂粗口，然后又规定粗口是粗口的?如果一开始没有弄那么多事情，现在也不会弄成这样。是谁的错?以前的人真无聊...

我不是在强词夺理。其实，[对我来说]粗口，是一种语助词，不要想太多就好啦...有没有人同意?

当然我身边还有很多不说粗口的人，听到我用词不当时会在旁边瞪我，骂我...我想我应该感谢他们。除了在这些人面前我会尽量控制我的言语，我在家也是不骂粗口的。难道你觉得我跟我爸妈聊天的时候要穿插一两句粗口吗?别傻了...有一些语助词是别人所不能了解的...我想，这就是代沟。

还 有还有，我觉得骂粗口是一种发泄。对于我这种时常在不爽东不爽西的人，需要很多的发泄管道，否则我早就疯掉了...你有压力，我有压力，每个人都需要自 己的发泄方式。除了听的人耳朵不舒服，我不觉得我有冒犯到什么人[至少在我很理智的时候，我是不会对着某人骂粗口，问候他家人]。所以，我觉得适量的发泄 未必是一件坏事。

妈的，废话连篇...

噢，我骂粗口了吗?对不起，那是一种发泄，我的发泄。

一张废纸的故事

我不知道最近的我怎么了。也许我是累了，也许我真的很讨厌现在的生活，也许是我特 别讨厌某人。诸事不顺...上课被盯得死死的；午休还要想午餐要吃什么；想跟朋友出去聚聚但是又没钱；就连在某个购物商场上个厕所都会遇到朋友。I mean，商场里有那么多地方，为什么会在厕所遇到嘞....?

会 难过的其中一个原因是因为最近跟某人的距离缩短了，他所有背后的谎言我都知道， 但是却不能多说什么，因为我知道说了会死人...感觉上他从前不是这样的人，但是发生了一些事情，然后他变了。当然，也许是以前的我不够了解他。所以我说 嘛，人与人之间还是需要某程度的距离的，哈哈...开始不知道自己这样子的纵容是不是对的。我不想把事情复杂化，但是却找不到简单化的方法。所以，我决定 了，就像从前那样继续下去，算是继续纵容吧...

我祈祷事情永远不会被多余的人知道，虽然我清楚地了解纸是包不住火的...

有什么人能救我?为什么我永远要卡在这种狗屁事情里!?为什么好事永远没有我的份?

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3 月的时候拿到一张让我很失控且想去死的纸。那张纸被遗弃在一个角落足足有五个月。现在我必须拿那一张烂纸去Certify，申请进大学。王八蛋，过去的 那一张纸很重要吗!?我根本就不想多看一眼那一张废纸。你不会知道我有多想把那张纸撕掉再烧掉；你更不会知道我有多讨厌想起有过这么一张烂纸。我希望有个 好心人可以替我复印，替我去certify，最好顺便帮我把申请表格还有那张烂纸一起交上去。

我连动都不想动那一张纸。

我已经没有力气生气我自己了。因为每次想到这张纸我都觉得我很逊。Okay，或许我真的很逊，逊到应该找一条河跳下去；或者像我之前的梦一样，坐在高楼上跟某个穿得很少的人喝酒[我不知道那个梦是什么意思]。算了...我的人生依然很糟，这是肯定的...

大家似乎都很不错，唯有我...依然是这样的颓废；跟人的关系依然那么的模糊；依然那么的不善于拒绝；依然那么的欠揍；还有，依然那么的堕落，堕落让我快乐。I bleed just to know I'm alive...

露沟

想象一下，一个腰部上多了一圈肉的女生；除了多肉，身上还长满痘子；除此之外，很爱穿低腰裤...重头戏来了：女生坐下后露出股沟。

是刻意的吗?感觉上是，因为她在坐下前并没有调整一下自己的裤子。难道坐下后感觉不到自己的屁股凉凉的吗?

妈的，差一点把我吓死...

基 本上，如果是个美女露股沟，大概没什么人会出声。但是这个女生，除了露股沟，还 露出了她腰部多余的肉还有屁屁上的痘痘...仔细的想一想，这似乎比Monster的暴露更恐怖。怎么说呢...?或许应该说，虽然Monster的暴露 很暴露，透视装加超短的热裤，但是至少身上没有痘痘，身上也似乎没有多余的肉。男生应该都很爱此类的暴露。当然，两者所露的沟不同，前者露股沟，后者偶尔 露乳沟。

从古至今，乳沟比股沟更为吸引人。

前者露错了沟，后者则选错了服装。

有兴趣露股沟者，下次应该注意自己屁屁上是否有痘子。如果不幸全身都有痘痘，不妨考虑在屁股上打一层粉还是遮瑕膏；要不然就穿高腰裤，把自己的屁股包起来。不要出来吓人。

有兴趣露乳沟者，如果要让乳沟看起来更深，可以考虑在乳沟上刷一点眼影，效果应该会不错；不然，就买魔术胸罩。

没有沟可以露?那就要用智慧取胜咯...不要更这种暴露狂一起出来吓人。

放心，我不会出来吓人的...

莫名其妙；生活在谎言里

最近，一点也不平静...日子越来越难混；周遭的人越来越莫名其妙。偏爱悲剧电影，抒情歌曲，晚上很难入眠...欸，精神病。

想逃并不是什么新鲜的事情。可悲的是，想逃却发现自己连基本条件都没有。有什么事 比这更可悲啊?算了...慢慢等吧。有些事情不能很深入的去探讨，不然会死得很难看。这道理我了解，所以才忍了下来，说真的也不知道是忍什么。万一忍一 忍，慢慢的我习惯了怎么办?妈的，我是绝对不会妥协的!

然后，又被人攻击咯。讲我很窜，很高傲。说真的，还真的不是第一次，所以也随便你 咯...但是，这家伙头脑有一点不灵活，在背后捅了我一刀还被我知道了...小心一点!莫名其妙!我高傲也不是什么一天两天的事了好不好，每天被 Complain同样的东西，很没有新鲜感嘞...换一个啦，拜托。Well,not that I care about what you said.Go on if you people like...I'm still me,the one who never give a fu*king damn about what you said!

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Hello Kitty说我生活在不肯定里。我承认...我对什么事都很没有安全感，什么事都觉得很不确定。最近Math在作Probability的 Chapter，有两个方程式是我每一次上课都必问的。每次问Hello Kitty的时候方程式都对，但是因为没有安全感而担心自己可能记错，所以一定要问。明天考试我该问谁?我都快受不了我自己了...除了生活在不肯定里， JYing以前总爱说我生活在谎言里...嗯，好像是真的。还真可悲啊，生活在不安定与谎言里。

等等，是我不断说谎还是我不断的被骗?

我想应该是前者...没错，我就是那个说谎不眨眼的大骗子。

我又被捅了一刀

晚餐的心情被破坏了。妈妈说，有人觉得我很高傲。Well，这并不是什么震惊的消息。And it's not that I care，只是可恶的妈妈竟然只说一半，然后没有告诉我是什么人，只留下一点线索：都毕业了，几百年都不会见一次面，知道来做么?有一点不了解，是第三者告诉我妈妈，还是那家伙的妈妈自己告诉我妈妈?该不会白痴到跟我妈说：欸，我女儿不爽你女儿，因为你女儿很窜!哇，应该不会有这样的人呱...?

Okay，就凭这一句话，那个人一定是跟我同一间中学咯。再来，可以传到我妈妈那里去，我大胆估计他的妈妈或者那个第三者常常在菜市场里见到我妈妈...总的来说，这样的人一只手数的完，大概就是那几个人了...

妈的，我犯太岁啊?算了，应该是长相的问题--长得不讨喜，脸臭...又不是第一次被讲，但是还是有一点不爽。不爽为什么这种人在我背后捅我一刀还要被我发现?难道真的笨到这种程度...?

Building castle in the air

Here's a little plan of mine[actually,it's abit crazy]:

10 years after I started working,I will run my own business,maybe a club for people to chill and hang out after work.I'll hire the Cats to work for me.Hello Kitty can help me to fold napkins[since she likes folding receipts so much] and Garfield can be my acountant.A-ha,ShuFang can also help with the accounts.EvilYun can be my PR manager,who will basically sit on my client's lap everynight,and since she'll be a doctor by that time,maybe she can demo on how to give injections or do an operation on stage,entertaining the customers.Oh yeah,she can also sing,together with Ah Piao,SuetLee,Ah Lek,TongLiang,WanKoon...I can also hire Jiajing to perform how to spray water like a pro,since he did such a great job in TW's performance;Ah Lek can perform Jolin's song,opera version;TongLiang can continue to play his harmonica;XinYun will be our official psychologist,in case anyone got mental disorder due to the craziness in the business;Geof will be my pork supplier;MunJong can be my consultant since he's so experienced;I'll be the guest performer,as the musician,the cats can do so too...Hmm,did I left anyone out?In other words,I'll hire all KMT members,because all of them are freaking talented,haha...And I promised to give Hello Kitty a monthly salary of $10000 for folding napkins and tissue papers.I must be a very generous boss...Anyway,this is purely building castles in the air.

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During lunch time,was asking opinion from the cats on what should I major in Uni.Garfield in Green;Hello Kitty in Purple;JR in Blue.

I thought you wanna major in Banking and Finance?
I'm not bad-tempered enough ar?Anyway,it's sounds abit boring.
Then?International business lor...
Yeah,not bad also.What if I major accounting[purely kidding].
GOOD!!Very good!
What if I work as an auditor for like 10 year?
Hahahahaha...
Well,I don't think that will happen.
If it does,then I won't be able to run my own business and you will be unemployed.
Hahahaha...Then go sweep the streets.It's easy and you don't need a qualification.
Wahahahahaha...Then you won't be able to run the business in this life.
Oh my god!!Then,Hello Kitty,you will not be paid $10000 monthly!And alot people will be unemployed...

Well,the conversation was quite fun.I mean,day-dreaming is fun,very fun...Your imaginations run wild,that's crazy,haha!So,anyone wants to work for me?Leave me comments,I'll think about it,muahahaha~

The past and the present

We had a discussion on our Theme Study presentation this morning.And Alibaba says:

Please make sure that you are able to give the defination of the past and the present.Now,how do you define what is past and what is present?Say,a minute ago,I slap you.Is that a past?

Since he asked us a question,this is what I answered him:

Yes,that is a past.And,I'm going to slap you back as the present.

*Loud applause!!*

Like this answer very much.Well,not only me,I guess alot of them like it too...

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Went for lunch with Esther[not Comp Sc lecturer,Esther],JYing and Vern.Had a great time.I miss the past,I guess...Well,only the part when I got to spend my time with the gang in class.Anyway,I really like spending time with them,that's the time when everything that bothers me doesn't bother me that much.And so I have decided that we shall go out again,during the school holidays when we can get everyone out.Too bad,I don't have a holiday.I'll have to meet all of you after my class.

Esther will be going back to UK soon.JYing shall be going to US,sooner.And I might also be leaving soon.Hmm...We should really meet each other more often...

不给我偷回来的啊?

今天被一个怪叔叔骚扰。不是那一种骚扰，想太多...我跟两只猫正在等待下一堂课，这是出现了一位怪叔叔开始在滔滔不绝的推销一张卡，一张对我不是那么有用途的卡...

怪:啊，你们申请这张卡了吗?
我:...[靠!超倒霉的]
怪:你们看看这张卡，很好的，%@$^&#%@&^
我：[打断他的话]免费的啊?
怪：[脸色大变]哎呀，你先看看嘛...
我：....[妈的，就知道不会有好事的啦...]

结果，申请这张所谓的优待卡必须付RM250，可以用六年。但是，我就是不想要嘛...但是怪叔叔又在滔滔不绝，有他讲没有我讲的说个不停。最过分的是，他最后说的几句话：

怪：你们要不要申请啊?你带头啦，你看你有电脑...
我：蛤?![妈的，什么鬼道理来的?]
怪：你这架电脑应该很贵嘞...多少钱蛤?
我：这个啊...同学的，借来用罢了，不知道价钱。

Garfield说我很会说谎，属于那种说谎不眨眼型的骗子。哈哈，过奖了...但是，说真的，有电脑家里就很有钱吗?先生，你脑袋有没有问题?不给电脑是我头回来的啊?

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昨晚，Hello Kitty 做了一个梦。梦里我们在上炸弹[经济学]的课，上着上着大家都快睡着了，所以炸弹说：To make the class more interesting,we shall ask a few students to perform。然后，你猜得没有错，我被点名跟另一个女生出去表演。根据Hello Kitty 所说的，我们合唱了郑秀文的'感情线上'。非常的白痴的一个梦，很多疑点：第一，跟我合唱的女生根本就跟我不同班；第二，我从来不常郑秀文的歌，key根本就不对；第三，打死我也不会愿意在全班面前唱歌；第四，炸弹是印度人，为什么会在他面前唱粤语歌曲?

距离

公教中学50岁了。但是，有一点不干我的事。话虽如此，我还是很捧场的回去探望一 些好朋友。我的眼神乱飘，深怕会停留在不对的人身上，比如：老师，不想见的人，不想见的旧同学，不想见的学弟妹...再一次踏进那个恐怖的地方，心情超级 的复杂，幸好身边有一堆朋友吵吵闹闹的，所以没有太多时间想太多。心情原本不错，但是中午的时候接到电话，被骂，所以又有一点不是很爽。算了，再打 算...我的周末不知道怎样...我自己都觉得很纳闷。

在公中吃了没有咖喱味道的咖喱鱼丸和没有蛋味又超级甜的蛋挞。看了几项表演，包括吉他口琴团的表演：口琴只有6个人，吉他手有10多个，一个鼓手；也许欠缺练习，有一点不堪入耳。Elecom还是很烂，Mic还是没有什么声音。总结：有些事情是不会改变的，比如Elecom的效率，一点有没有进步，逊!!；口琴吉他团的表演，虽然有一部分Elecom必须负一部分的责任，但是团员还是必须扛下部分的责任，多练习吧，这样你们也敢上台...?；我心里的阴影，还没有散开...

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我 怕狗，这已经不是什么出奇的新闻了，大家都知道。邻居买了一只新的西施狗，感觉 上还蛮可爱的，因为我跟它之间隔了一道篱笆...奇怪吧，如果那只狗在我面前，我一定会受不了抓狂，而且体温马上上升，狂飙汗，血压马上飙高。但是一道篱 笆却可以让我觉得狗也可以很可爱，有一点不可思议...是那种距离，让我发现,狗也可以不那么恐怖。

两个人之间有距离，所有的事情会比较美好。人与人之间本来就有着这一种距离，因为不认识而产生的距离。当距离慢慢缩短，看得就越清楚，原本很美的一切会因为看得太清楚而把事情搞砸。距离是一种很One-Way的东西，距离缩短了就没有退路，除非你失忆，能够把看得太清楚的事情都忘记。有时候，我喜欢跟人保持一定的距离，不是因为我很难跟人相处，也不是因为对方很难相处，而是因为我不想破坏那种原本的好感。尤其我又是一个自认有着那么多缺点，坏习惯的人。我情愿让别人觉得我很难相处，因为我很怕被远离的感觉，很伤...没错，这种事情发生过...不知道是我真的那么有问题，还是我遇的人有问题...应该是我吧?

有 了距离，至少你不会把对方的缺点看得太清楚，不会破坏那个原本就不是很close的感情。本来是朋友，之后也还会是朋友，事情不会改变很多。如果从好朋 友的位置退位到朋友的位置，我告诉你，撞墙去吧...那绝对是一种非言语能形容的感觉，有一点像是心被淘空了，灵魂跟躯体分开了的烂感觉...尤其当你的 朋友是那种很Benefit-oriented的人，那个时候你心里的疑问会比百科全书里所见的还多，但是问题不见得会有答案。我知道这个'距离'的逻辑很逊，但是没有办法，我总得保护我自己...如果因为距离缩短而失去原有的感觉，你不会觉得很失落吗?当你把事情看得很清楚，甚至太清楚了，所有的美好都变形了。好感少了，多了争执，批评和误会...

每 天见面，每天吵架，每天不爽这个不爽那个，很累吧?这多多少少都是因为距离太近 了，可能再加上磁场不对，所以很衰，每天被骂...我也很累，所以我想要离开。也许，两个人之间有那么一点距离可以让事情没有那么糟糕。不常见面，所以没 有机会常常吵架，常常被骂，也许还会多一份牵挂。牵挂怎样都比争执好得多...

我最近还蛮累的...你知道吗?距离很好，事情看不清楚也很好...

等等等等

等等等等....
可能是等上瘾了...

到底在等什么?
在MSN从上线到下线...
等待也没有人知道

等等等等...
继续等咯

让我想吐的两样东西

最近有两件东西，是我听到，看到或想到都想吐的：

第 一，粽子。端午节刚刚过，吃了不少。由于是假期，所以超懒惰出门，有几天竟然连 续两餐都吃粽子解决。粽子太油腻，如果有的选，那绝对不会是我的首选。每次吃过了粽子，我会觉得好饱，消化有一点不良...也许是心理作用，也许是真的很 饱...大约十几天前，猛吃粽子的日子开始了。爸爸的朋友买了十几颗粽子送我们，所以我已经有十几天早餐都在吃粽子...过了没几天，爸爸的同事也买了几 颗粽子给我们。然后，粽子陆续有来，朋友的朋友送的啦，还有亲戚裹的素粽子....想象一下连续十几天都吃粽子当早餐的日子...为什么当初屈原投江的时 候他们不弄一点清单一点，少油，少肉的食物呢?为什么非得弄个什么粽子，而且还把粽子弄得那么油腻?因为太油腻了，所以每次开粽子的时候，双手总是油腻腻 的...我最讨厌油腻腻的感觉，所以我很讨厌开粽子的时候。每次好想戴上手套才开粽子...

第 二件让我想吐的事，非瑜伽Yoga莫属。Oh my god,不知道发生了什么事，瑜伽似乎成了城中热爆话题。我这两个月买了几本杂志。靠!!每本都给我介绍瑜伽：介绍瑜伽有几种，始于什么国家，访问有练瑜 伽的艺人有关他们练瑜伽的Before and After，而内附简易瑜伽姿势，提臀瘦腿纤腰收臀什么什么的...各个知名运动品牌也开始推出一系列瑜伽的服饰。时尚杂志当然少不了会介绍各个知名运动 品牌所推出的瑜伽时尚装备，然后‘顺便’推介城中的瑜伽中心啦...哇靠，有没有别的?为什么除了瑜伽还是瑜伽?还有还有，我妈妈，妈妈的朋友， 妈妈的朋友的朋友，统统开始在练瑜伽...电影龙凤斗里，郑秀文也练瑜伽；就连韩国知名女星，李英爱在某韩国品牌的广告里也摆了一个瑜伽的Pose。哇 咧，真受不了!!然后昨天去书展，几乎每个摊子都在卖瑜伽的书，而且种类繁多，提臀瘦腿纤 腰收臀，要瘦哪里就瘦哪里。然后你就看到一群太太站在那里，选购瑜伽的书。对于一个超级不喜欢运动，超级讨厌流汗那种黏黏的感觉，又不追赶时尚潮流的人， 我 真的懒得去管什么瑜伽不瑜伽的...为什么要花钱流汗呢?为什么要把自己好好的手脚折来折去，把身体扭来扭曲的咧?犯贱啊?Eww~

希望有什么美食专家，可以改一改这个粽子。让它不要那么的油腻，吃了比较容易消化...还有，希望瑜伽热潮快一点过去...要不然我想我真的会吐~

没有资格说话的请不要吵!!

最近的人[某些长辈，有些还是跟我没有关系的人]有一点贪心，总是对我要求很多。让我很不自在...做人不可以这样贪心的咯...我没有反弹是因为不想吵架，绝对不是因为我妥协了...我没有妥协，只是暂时在忍耐...很努力的在想办法脱离!!

我说过我讨厌改变，我讨厌改变以后被大家觉得是发生了什么大事；讨厌改变以后得向全世界人解释为什么改变。但是，我更讨厌被周遭的人叫我改变，尤其当我跟你并没有那么熟。虽然是开玩笑的口吻，但是，我就是不爽听!我 为什么要因为我家什么人跟你说了什么，然后你又跑过来跟我说什么，我就要改变啊?我不知道在听到你们那些话之后应该给于什么反应。凭什么?就因为我给面子 你，没有在你面前发飚，所以你觉得我妥协了?一个字--屁!!我尊重你们是长辈，所以都没有怎样发飚，只以微笑带过。没有资格的各位，请不要随意发表言论，我不爽!!切记，忍耐是有限的...不要以为给我一点压力我就会屈服；不一定...我不是一个这么容易就乖乖妥协的人。

对 不起，我不是一只乖巧的羊；如果我看起来像一只羊，那我想我也是一只披着羊皮的 狼。我自认有时候[很多时候]很难被捉摸，内心真正的想法总是不那么容易让人家看透。当然，还是有些人很想会通灵一样，一眼就把我看穿，最讨厌这种家伙 了...然后表达能力又差，又懒惰去多做解释。事情累积下来，我越来越让人难以捉摸。我知道我不应该一直希望别人来了解我，我应该平凡化我自己，让别人可 以了解我...哇，很奇怪，我到底在说什么屁?但是，到底怎样?为什么应该对我了如指掌的人，现实生活中似乎没有那么的了解我?不了...

做 人不应该贪心，你总不能要求我都依你喜欢的作改变吧...如果要改变，也要使我 心甘情愿的。为什么要勉强别人附和你的喜好?为什么一定要别人做他本身不喜欢做的事情?当了那么久的人，我越来越觉得自己很窝囊，总是附和着别人的思想， 讨好别人。我快把我自己忘了...很想问自己，我把自己排在第几位了?我只是想开心一点，我不是那么在乎别人怎么想，控制不了的事情我不爽去管...我不奢望他能认同我，但是我希望至少他能不反对我喜欢的事情。

最近超不爽的!!不爽自己总是要讨好别人，很没有意思，也没有目的...人会叛逆绝对不是理由的，都是身边的人还有环境逼出来的...不要以为我的沉默代表着妥协；并没有，好不好?!不要什么事情都替我做决定，我是一个独立个体。不要给我擅自作决定，然后到处放消息，我不爽!!消息放了出去就好像代表我一定要做到?没有这种事，做梦!!

这种情况，没有别的，只让我想逃...

认输?

长越大原来单纯的快乐
已不再我们身边很久
为什么匆匆忙忙的出门
回到家面对电视发呆
不管下雨太阳 早就不会感动
盲目的在奔跑 累了也不知道
再多喝几杯酒 以为就是解脱
那答案是什么
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错
长越大原来单纯的快乐
已不再我们身边很久
为什么匆匆忙忙的出门
回到家面对电视发呆
不管下雨太阳 早就不会感动
盲目的在奔跑 累了也不知道
再多喝几杯酒 以为就是解脱
那答案是什么
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错在不承认失败 谁可以原谅我
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错
原来自己不聪明 原来什么都没有
原来应该了解的道理 现在才知道
原来输给了时间 原来输给了自己
原来错在不承认失败 谁可原谅我哦~

对不起，我爱你...

你空出一双手 穿过黑夜握住我
两个人的手心里有 一整片宽阔的天空

谁都没有开口 星星也忘了闪烁
有你陪着我就可以 走到天涯的尽头

那时候 还记得那时候从 手心传过来的温柔
如果说 只能活这一天 曾经与深深相爱
我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远

并肩的两个人在银白色的街头
印下的脚印还一直在我的心里往前走

从爱的第一秒直到最后一分钟
我对我们之间没有任何后悔的理由

那时候 还记得那时候从手心传过来的温柔
如果说 只能活这一天曾经与你深深相爱
我已没有遗憾

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远

当走过的路流过的泪被落叶淹没
是你的温柔让我的心重新活过来
就算相爱的人无论如何暂时要离开
别问未来怎么办我只需要等待

我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远
走在这个适合拥抱的季节 爱在心里 所以我不可怜
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 紧紧抱着你说过的誓言
等待着我们说好的永远
回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 把最后的合照摆在窗前
想象着你也许跟我一样 正在倒数再见的时间
等着给我说好的 永远

Think before you abuse...

Weirdo Alibaba started a weird topic this morning.Totally crap...

We were doing this Theme Study on The Outsider,a pretty boring novel.Finished the 3rd chapter and he decided to stop there.Then he said that he read an story in a newspaper.The story goes like this:

There's this boy,whose mother only had an eye.This boy didn't like his mother because his mother only had an eye.The other kids in school always joke on this boy and his mother because of that.So,this boy was very annoyed and treated his mother badly.When this boy grew up,he left home and went out to work.Suddenly[I wonder how sudden is it...],he received a news saying his mother's dead.He went back for the funeral and only then he realised that he was the one who was born with one eye.His mother donated her eyes for him so that he could live a normal like.The end~

Okay,basically,I feel that this is a lame~ story,totally pointless...Of course,I still feel that this boy's mother sacrifies an eye for her child,which is kinda touching...And this boy,totally an idiot.What's wrong with the mother if she was borned with only one eye?It's not that she wants to be so...

Anyway,here comes the point.Alibaba reckons that there's something wrong about this story.And he says that the mother is the culprit.Everyone in class was like:What the...?!He claims that this mother should have told her son that she donated him an eye.If she told him at the first place,he wouldn't have treated her that bad and this abusive thingy could be avoided...Again,I was like:What the hell is this?What kind of philosophy is that?!

Alibaba continues...

Actually,man shouldn't be blamed for the abusive cases happened.I mean,they should be blamed,but the women should also be blamed.If a woman are being abused,she had a choice to leave,why should she still stay there and continue with such life?There's a true case,a woman was being abused.Guess what she did?She put female hormon into her husband's coffee.This husband became sissy and his physical appearance changed too.So,if you're being abused,this is a good way to tackle with your husband,why divorce?

Someone asked:What if the husband ran away with another guy?

Alibaba repiled:That's even good,you can sue him and get money from him!!

Then I said:Then it'll be better to add female hormon in his food and get a guy to seduce him!He'll become sissy and you can get money from him!Is this your point?You're free from abuse faster and you get his money faster...

Well,I really wonder how did we went so far.From Theme Study,we travelled all the way to the mother who only have one eye,the son who mentally abusive his mother;The victim of abusive family who should have left when they're being abuse;Then female hormons in male's coffee;Becoming sissy and changes in physical appearance of man;Becoming gay;And victim getting money from abusers...Totally crap!!

So,the conclusion:Guys should think twice before abusing your wives...I reckon the female hormon is really terror...Muahaha...All female out there,did you learn a lesson??

什么叫国际化?

新的手机号码不断有陌生来电者。那也就算了，来电者竟然还是个外国人...我指的外国人不是美国人，英国人，那种会说英文的外国人；也不是日本人，韩国人，至少会听简单英文的那种...

感觉上他说的语言有点像韩文，所以一开始我不断的用韩文问他：什么?!当然，他又用他那我听没有的语言说了一大堆。说了那么多，我只听懂了一个字：Myanmar...没错，他一直在重复着这个字...虽然我不知道是不是着一个Myanmar，但是，我的天啊...如果说他是大马公民，至少也会一点点的国语吧[我指的是：Salah Nombor!]，还有一点点英语[Wrong number!]。如果连英语Wrong number也听不懂，那我真的不知道应该怎样了...所以，我想他应该是缅甸人吧，说着自己的母语，不小心拨电给我这个不懂得缅甸语的家伙，然后一直重复的在念自己国家的名字...什么东西啊!欸，这样子真的很奇怪好不好...

如果在接到他的电话，我想我得使出杀手锏了:I'm sorry.The number you've dialed is not in service.Please DO NOT try again.Thank you...对不起，您所播的号码永远不会被接通，请您不要再打来了...也许我该考虑把以上那段话翻译成缅甸语...

之前使用DiGi电讯公司的手机号码不断接到印度人的电话，一拿起电话另一边就开始用淡米尔语滔滔不绝，没完没了...这次换成了Maxis，竟然更离谱，竟然国际化到接到外劳的电话?!太夸张了吧?!该不会下次我再换一个号码，会接到什么日本人，韩国人的电话吧...某广播电台常常在播一个广告。广告里，五月天的阿信说：嘿，什么叫国际化?请问，我这种算是国际化吗?

我这是走什么狗屎运啊...?

吉他；教她?不会吧...

有人说我弹吉他的样子很有杀气...哦，是吗?朋友，那不叫杀气，其实那只是认真...然后他说：欸，你也会认真?真低级，竟然这样看我!!有人说我弹吉他的样子很好笑，有人说很有杀气...欸，好笑跟杀气有关联吗?奇怪...

已经好久没有弹吉他了，家里的吉他也好像快死去了。昨天有一位同学，我完全不认识的同学，托我另一位同学要求我教她吉他...等一下，我没听错吧?教你吉他?多一次--教你吉他!!不会吧，难道世界真的变了?连一个被踢出社的半桶水吉他手也可以开吉他班?

我很认真的思考了这个问题。没错，很认真...然后我只觉得：Oh my goodness，不可思议...怎么办?我这个半桶水的吉他手能应付吗?如果能把她教好，我会很有成就感；但是相反的，如果教不好呢?那不是打击我的自信心吗?然后一大堆问题陆续有来：什么时候教；在哪里教；她有吉他吗；要教什么；我怎样回家....哇靠，我的脑袋快爆炸了。

最大的问题，我对自己很没有信心，而且我也不是很有耐心的人。顺便说说，我的信心在一个月前不幸遇到意外，意外之后就住进了加护病房，一直到现在都还没有复原[是变成了植物人吗?好像是...]。这信心不是一天两天可以找出来的；再说，耐心不是我要有就有的...怎么办?

真没想到，我也竟然会有着一种烦恼...哈哈!

被针对?

不知道是不是我多心了，总觉得Ms.L今天上课时一直盯着我看。是我今天比较好看吗?我的天...事情已经过了两天，我们三个人还是有一点放不开，一想到要上她的课就好难过...我认为我们是被针对了。你认为呢?

上课前，总觉得她的眼神一直在飘，然后突然间盯着我，让我很不自在...当然我也没有退缩。既然你要望，那我跟你对望好了!!谁怕谁?!真的就这样轧上了!!所以，我用带有挑战意思的眼神跟她对望了好一下子。干啥啊?有啥好看啊?!

我马上写了一张字条给Hello Kitty：

不知道是不是心理作用，我觉得她用很不同的眼光盯着我看...
我也觉得，所以我也不敢直视她...
为什么?我们应该敢敢盯住她的眼睛!

糟糕，该不会接下来的几个月都要被针对，上课要被盯到死死的，每次问问题都我的份吧?拜托，我们又不是故意的，何必那么小气呢?如果每次问问题都会问到我，那我死定了...因为最近上她的课都在游魂，不知道是我太累还是她说得我不明白...她真的应该好好反省。

对了，现在我们已经不会在上课时说话了...如果有什么事想说，我们会写在字条上，让对方看。是个很不错的方法，至少没有人会说：It's rude to speak a foreign language in front of people who don't understand...

18岁的老人

最近天天在下雨，心情也灰灰的...很惨。每次下雨我就很喜欢发呆，什么都想，胡思乱想，也不知道应该怎样停止。每次上线到一半都被逼要下线，担心电脑被 雷劈...真扫兴!电脑关上，没事做，就躺在床上睡觉咯...卫星电台也不能看，又不能上线，这个时候当然睡觉啦...不然可以干啥呢?

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这两天发生了很多事。我重遇了几位朋友；差一点就可以见到好久不见的朋友，但是最后还是错过了...；拆穿了某个烂人的假面具；看了一大群小孩子演的舞台 剧，很好玩；这两天上线都遇到同样的几个人，真有缘...；为朋友打了强心针，不断的给她自信心，主人为快乐之本...哈哈!!

有人对我说:很奇怪，为什么你总是能和年纪比你大的朋友混得那么好...这个问题啊，我怎么回答你哦?交朋友这种事情，用心就可以咯...年纪绝对不是一个问题，身高体重也只是空壳子嘛，用心就对了...看看自己MSN的名单，果然，大部分的朋友都是年纪比我大的。哎哟，年纪大又怎样?都是朋友嘛...开心就好!!结果我被炸:那是因为你心智很老吧...老人，18岁的老人。哼，就算是又怎样呢?是在嫉妒吗?哈哈...我很老[心智上]，我承认，这是事实吧...

最近很多人开始新恋情，也有不少人结束了维持几年的恋情；有的人为即将来临的测验在忙，也有即将考试但是还在线上跟我聊...其实说真的，这些都OK，只要你们开心，想干嘛都可以。我的朋友，你们一定要幸福...

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啊，得去做功课了，不然我永远都跟不上课业...该死的会计!!

How come you're so cool?

Was standing in front of class waiting for people inside to come out,this classmate of mine approached and asked:

'How come you're so cool?'
'Erm,am I...?'
'Yeah,you are...'
'Er...Cos I'm not hot?'
'Oh...Cool...'

Hmm,yes...This question has been haunting me for a LONG LONG time...Even my family member reckons that I have a shitface most of the time.Now,for people who don't know me well,they will think that I have a shitface,always showing as if I want a fight...Bollocks!!If you know me well,then you should know that it's pretty difficult for me to stop talking once I started it...I am a very friendly person...[*puke*....]Okay,not very friendly,but not that unfriendly either...

Example:
'Do you know that I really wanted to whack you when you first arrive?'This is what my Team Captain said when we were on the Taiwan Trip...

'You looked damn arrogant when I first saw you...'This is what my Piano teacher and my classmates said to me...

People who first know me will think that I am:
Very unfriendly
Angry all the time
Moody all the time
Arrogant
Proud

So,what can I do?Are you going to kill me because I don't smile?My goodness...I felt terrible too as people always misunderstand me...[Yeah,right...As if I care THAT much,haha!]

Actually it is not a shitface that I have,it is,in fact expressionless.Yes,expressionless...Remember this...You can't expect me to artificially create a smile face all the time,that will be tedious...People may think that I'm crazy laughing to myself.I rather to be reckon as a cool,arrogant,unfriendly person then to be said as a crazy freak!

I shouldn't be blame for not smilling.Maybe there's a dysfunction in the muscle of my face,resulting everyone commenting about me staring at people in a unfriendly face expression.Yeah yeah,whatever...This is ME...I don't wanna change myself.

Well,of course,some people do like me because of this expressionless kind of face expression...Not trying to show off anything,it's nothing worth to be shown off...Just wanting to say that everything has 2 face,something that you don't like maybe be something that people liked so damn much...

How come I'm so cool?Ask my mom,she gave birth to me...

李翊君-勇敢的爱

是我不应该 让你不肯爱
过去的好象回不来
时间没改变 只是你更遥远
还有什么方法可爱
是你没感觉 还是怕再被伤害
我知道你只想被爱
好想你跟我说 你会回来
只有你才是我的最爱
我说不出的话 希望你可以体会明白
把美好的回忆打开 让我们再勇敢的爱

少了你的我还不习惯 曾经有过美丽的未来
you know to me took to 放开手
我以为我能够不闻不问就让你走

我只是记性差

大家都说我是个很糟糕的人，因为我时常连朋友的样子也会忘记。其实，我不知道我是不是那么糟糕。我觉得我只是记性很差，常常忘东忘西，没有把每天发生的事好好记起。

活在这世上已经有18年了，这几年里前后出现了几个茶[我没有用'杯'来形容茶因为我觉得用'杯'来形容一个人很不好...]。通常我会把样子忘记的都是这几个茶。 今天，真的不知道是倒霉还是幸运，竟然让我遇见了某一个茶。哇，我们已经几乎1年没见面了，突然间碰到真的差一点把我吓死...她的样子并没有变，跟1年 一模一样；我不知道我有没有变，可能越变越白痴...Anyway，一点都不重要。在他叫我的那一瞬间，我愣住了，而且愣了好久...我用最快的速度搜寻 我的记忆，脑里重复着一个问题：Okay,who are you??当时我的脑里蹦出了很多人的名字，差一点就把这个茶跟另一个茶搞错了...

茶：诶，忘记我了啊?
我：[停住2秒]蛤?嗯...没有啦，我哪里会忘记你...
[O.S.:是咯，其实我真的不知道你是谁...]
茶：很久没有见到你了，在忙什么?
我：没有忙什么啦，忙着呼吸吧...
[O.S.：哇靠，你到底是谁?]
茶：什么时候有空，叫Desmond一起出来。

一直到他提起Desmond，我才想起来她是谁。搞清楚，我只记得他是谁，没有记起她的名字。因为到最后我始终没有叫出她的名字...

继续堕落

当你和你身边的人所拥有的差异相当大，你不免会怀疑你自己到底是干什么...到底哪根神经不对...很怀疑自己以前是怎样混出来的?

第 一次，我觉得我不需要音乐。因为音乐让我很失控，不知道为什么...真的很扯， 我竟然跟音乐隔离了两天...我希望把自己的记忆删除。如果可以，我希望把我整个人删除。我讨厌这么一个失控的自己，然而我还是继续堕落，而且完全没有想 振作的想法。我希望离开，将自己抽离，跟所有人隔绝。因为我不喜欢现在这个环境，至少在这个时间点上，我很想离开。我讨厌看到大家脸上失望的表情，所以我 自己不太能接受。最近干什么?最近到底是干什么?!

手机完全没休息过。我昨晚选择在晚上8点入睡，将手机按下静音，任由它震动。自己开始在床上胡思乱想，想着想着就睡着了...很怀疑大家知道这消息后会怎样...昨天告诉了某个人，她只说了一句：骗人!!我再也没有出声，因为我不知道要说什么，但是那一刻，我很不舒服。我有必要编这种谎话吗?你把我当什么?!!然后回到家，真的我就不想说话了...

我想我真的需要加护病房...

晚安。我，继续堕落...

又乱来了...

最近好像又回到从前了。像从前那样听着别人跟我说他们不开心，说他们喜欢了某某...虽然我不能替全部人解决问题，但是他们肯找我谈天我应该觉得开心吧...比起中学时期常常被人利用了然后‘丢掉’...唉，往事不要再提，人生已多风雨...

毕竟我在中学的时候朋友真的很少，来来去去就是跟我同班两年的那7个人，还有几个 别人口中跟我有暧昧关系的朋友咯...习惯就好，被说了那么就我还真的有一点习惯了。现在换了学校，没那么多人知道我的过去，就好像重新开始新生活一样。 我现在的朋友也不多，我想10枝手指应该够数了。撇开在中学认识的几个同学，在这里认识的朋友让我改变不少，我变得有一点白痴，神经病...还被人说越来 越有陈艾拉(S.H.E.的Ella)的味道，哈哈，应该开心还是难过?

我想我跟我的老师的关系应该不错，以前就有不少很‘照顾’我的老师每天盯着我；现 在上了先修班也有不错的老师[比Chew Wai Boon更年轻的老师，样子和教书的方式也很像Chew Wai Boon，真惨...]。当然，跟我的两位钢琴老师还是很好，一个还是每天找我解决电脑难题，另一个说话还是那样的刻薄，很喜欢亏我...是好事吗?有时 候被亏到很懒惰反驳，就这样附和她咯，自己亏自己...

最近两天很低落，因为不断有测验。让我不由自主地情绪化起来...但是还好，我没 有像以前一样很突然的大发脾气，吓死周围的人。只是有时候会静静的不想说话，一个人想事情...然后今天超倒霉的，竟然在Computer Science的时候换了3台电脑才可以顺利的Access学校的系统上课...是干嘛!?怎么那么烂啊?!

学生的心理

每次上课时，当老师，教授发问的时候，你会自己举手回答吗?像在Harry Potter里的Hermione那样，总是等不及要回答所有教授的问题。说真的，我想现实中很少人会这样做。本人觉得会自荐的人是那种很渴望得到大家目 光成为全场焦点的人。另外，我觉得这样有一点太张扬了。以上论点只代表本人的立场。

作为一个学生，如果自荐回答问题，而又答错了，我本身会觉得很没面子[我不知道别人是否那样想...]，所以我会 选择不回答...当然，像我这种懒惰的人，哪里会肯举手，开口回答问题呢?Why take the trouble？对于我来说，课业上还有运动上凡事越低调越好[Things are different when it comes to music and others]。我最不喜欢老师记得我的名字，因为我很讨厌老师可以随时随地叫出我的名字，感觉很不好。

每 个老师，教授都曾经当过学生的角色，所以你们应该多多少少了解学生的心理...既然学生那么讨厌回答问题，为什么你们还要发问呢?当然，老师们常常说：如果我不 问你们，你们就不会温习功课...没错，你们不问我就不会温习功课....在这里我必须很诚实的说。以前有一个Physic老师成天就爱问问题，每次把我 搞得神经很紧绷，呼吸困难，所以我就不妥她不妥了两年。不要说我懒惰，不要说我不肯努力，我就是不喜欢这种教学方法。[当然，there's nothing I can do about the lousy education system...]

每 次老师发问的时候，所有的人都一定是头低低，就连呼吸都不敢用力，担心动了一个汗毛便会被老师发现，nobody dares to touch a muscle...当然更没有人会敢跟老师有眼神的交流，除非你很有把握你会回答那个问题，就是我所说的爱现的同学。当然，也有人喜欢耍心理战术，以为跟 老师有眼神交流就能逃过一劫。哪一种方法有效，我不知道...因为通常我都是头低低坐在那里，一动也不动的那一个...很孬种对吗?无所谓，我不介 意...我只是想好好的当一个安静，耍自闭，看起来坏，的学生，哈哈!!

Me and my cousin sister

别人-刘若英

同样的灯,点燃这个黄昏
我,我毫无疑问
面对自己的天真
留言的人,没出声
我还记得有,有没有可能
想问候,或只是不小心打错了
为什么我要勇敢
将失去看得过份简单
明知你心里有别人
怎么我不肯承认
我以为不闻不问
是遗忘你最快的过程
眼泪,比想像中难忍.
同一扇区隔这夜的深
我,我毫无选择
心甘情愿的深沦
人来人往,天黑了
我还记得,世界上除了你没别人
了解我不是真的习惯一个人
为什么我要勇敢
将祝福当作我的责任
接受你心里有别人
令我都微笑的人
我不想弄假成真
把坚强当作我的本能
隐瞒,是最深的伤疼.
她的左手,你轻轻牵著
在对街向我挥手,
我真的感动就算是难过,
都有种心酸温柔,
你还处处在意我
可惜不是在你爱的人
是我的时候
为什么我要勇敢
遇见了也不能潇洒转身
承认你心里有别人
令我都微笑的人
总有天我不再虔诚
再没有口是心非的成分
你将只是陌生人.